*Crawls Into A Hole*

[jackofallgeeks]

Today has thus far generally sucked.

After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.

At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.

This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.

I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.

Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.

Comments

>hugs<

[daisysweet.livejournal.com]

Why not cuddle with friends? Besides. Putting your head on someone's shoulder isn't cuddling. That's affection, touch, love and friendship. If I could count all the times it made me feel great that my friends felt they could lay all over me (... even if they DID take to calling me a PILLOW... ~__~;;) ... I'd have a lot of great happy moments to look back on, you know? Now that I don't have it, I miss it like CRAZY.

Anyway..., consider this a hug from California. Think positive thoughts, Andrew, and don't let other people having bad days (Jack) get you down. Chances are he didn't mean to be so out of line.

Yes, well....

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Oh, I would love to cuddle with friend. You have NO idea - they're all cute, too. ^^
But... ::shrugs:: There's something there I'm not comfortable with, I guess... ><;; Maybe the fact that I would WANT to cuddle with them is a deterent - ie, anything someone might think wouldn't be so far from the truth...
But I've been thinking, and I suppose I should throw causion to the wind, in this case at least. If people get used to you being a touchy-feely kinda guy, it won't be such a big deal, right?
Riiiiiiight.

I appreciate you're e-hug (if you will), and i'm sure he didn't mean to be such a...not nice word, but I also think I was the major cause of his having a bad day, so...

[starlight1184.livejournal.com]

You can so cuddle with friends! I am all for cuddling with friends!

Well... I don't know why anyone would have a low opinion of you, so thats just weird. And with Jack, it sounds like he was having a bad day to... and had to take it out on someone. Everyone has bad days... some people are just lucky and don't get them as often. Damn them. ;-)

Hope you feel better darlin. Cheer up!

The Low Opinion....

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

As far as that goes, when I first met Nina last semester, it was in the context of me an Aaron more or less hitting on her (more Aaron and less me) because she's a rare find - a female Engineer. trust me, that's an odd bird. Anyways, I don't honestly think she has a low opinion of me, but I did confess to being a slacker (yeah, like she's really the scholar among us) and she is one of a very small number of girls that I've been aware that I was hitting on them, so I know she's gotta be catching it. And she's got a boyfriend (not that it'd ever stop me...), so...

(Huggles)...

[serenabuny.livejournal.com]

I hope talking to me made you feel better, ne? And have fun at your uh... party? ^_^;;;... And don't kill Jack on the way...

^___^

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Turns out the guy I was supposed to follow to the place never showed up, so I have showered and changed, and plan on simply relaxing this night. And my grandparents are outta town this weekend, so while that means I needa eat at North, it also means that I'll have tomarrow and Sunday night to unwind, to. This could be a good thing.