*Crawls Into A Hole*
Feb. 15th, 2002 01:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksToday has thus far generally sucked.
After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.
At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.
This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.
I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.
Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.
After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.
At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.
This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.
I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.
Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.
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>hugs<
Anyway..., consider this a hug from California. Think positive thoughts, Andrew, and don't let other people having bad days (Jack) get you down. Chances are he didn't mean to be so out of line.
Yes, well....
Date: 2002-02-15 04:01 pm (UTC)But... ::shrugs:: There's something there I'm not comfortable with, I guess... ><;; Maybe the fact that I would WANT to cuddle with them is a deterent - ie, anything someone might think wouldn't be so far from the truth...
But I've been thinking, and I suppose I should throw causion to the wind, in this case at least. If people get used to you being a touchy-feely kinda guy, it won't be such a big deal, right?
Riiiiiiight.
I appreciate you're e-hug (if you will), and i'm sure he didn't mean to be such a...not nice word, but I also think I was the major cause of his having a bad day, so...