*Crawls Into A Hole*

[jackofallgeeks]

Today has thus far generally sucked.

After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.

At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.

This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.

I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.

Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.

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The Low Opinion....

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As far as that goes, when I first met Nina last semester, it was in the context of me an Aaron more or less hitting on her (more Aaron and less me) because she's a rare find - a female Engineer. trust me, that's an odd bird. Anyways, I don't honestly think she has a low opinion of me, but I did confess to being a slacker (yeah, like she's really the scholar among us) and she is one of a very small number of girls that I've been aware that I was hitting on them, so I know she's gotta be catching it. And she's got a boyfriend (not that it'd ever stop me...), so...