The Lonely Snowman

[jackofallgeeks]

"You need to get out more."

It's really kind of funny, the way we met. It was one of those 'you have to be hurt before you can know you were well' type of things? I didn't realize how miserable I was before I met her. She's just so wonderful... even now, I think she'd just be so great for me... I wish I had anything to offer her, anything she wanted.

"I would do anything for love/ but I won't do that"

One thing that I think I miss is the comfort she was to me. Yes, yes, she made me feel safe when I was with her - calm, accepted, loved. I don't expect that should go away - I pray for that to remain. But...she offered comfort, intimacy. I could kiss her, and hold her, and she accepted that. I fear that is lost, and I mourn for it. I want to kiss someone...

"I don't want to feel this way, no/ I don't want to say I'm just a friend."

I want us to get back together. I mean, if it's over, I just want to be able to let it go - accept it and move on. But I don't WANT it to be over. I want us to work out whatever problems we have... I want to be with her. Maybe not immediately, maybe not even for a while, but in the end, I still want to be with Claire.

"She wants me to be/ something I can't be."

I should go...

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[surichan.livejournal.com]

I don't know what I can say to this. I have a feeling my words would be ineffectual, so I can only say that I love you and offer you the biggest hug the world has ever known and a proper, in-person ear to listen and shoulder to do whatever on when we see each other on the 20th.