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[jackofallgeeks]

I got mad at myself yesterday because I botched on my finances. In short, the money wasn't where I thought it would be when I thought it would be there, which came as a shock and... -shrugs- It made me mad because I should be able to conduct my affairs better than that.

But my mom pointed out that when she was my age and she botched her finances, it meant bounced checks and overdrawn-fees and missed bills and no money. I take for granted how well off I am. I take for granted that I can botch my finances by over $500 and all it amounts to is a slight inconvenience and minor frustration on my part. I get pad tomorrow, and the greatest part of my botch will just be a memory. That's all it takes, and I should really appreciate it.

Completely unrelated (so far as I'm aware), a feeling of aching sadness came over me on the way back from work this afternoon. Not the worst I've felt, even recently, but still the sort where were I able to cry at will I would have just to ease the ache. I can really only guess at why I would feel sad but, as ever, I think it boils down to me being lonely. (I also think that fighting this caffeine addiction isn't helping, either).

Right now, I just want someone to put my arms around. Mother, sister, friend, lover; just a someone.

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[abbasangel35.livejournal.com]

You know I'm always here if you need me to talk. Sorry I can't be there for hugs *tear*. Hope you feel better! God Bless!!

[deadb0dyman.livejournal.com]

wow... another LJ guy... I myself am an LJ old schooler as I've dubbed it... good to see you keeping lj alive! hahahaa - btw... it's pat, i barely ever update anything but the entries, so the other stuff is pretty old... anyway... whats up?

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Aye, I remember you from a long, long time ago -- and yeah, I know which Pat this is. -laughs- Mine is a long-running journal, upwards of 5 years now, I think, though it's slower now with work and all.