What's so maybe about Katie?

[jackofallgeeks]

I haven't been able to get her out of my mind since Tuesday.
It feels like so much longer than that.
She hasn't contacted me since, and if you know me, you know that silence makes me anxious.
So I'm anxious.
And I'm impatient.
And I'm a fool.
And even if I'm not a fool, she's still 3000 miles away, and I hardly know her.

Persistence is a good thing, I've been told.
But I can't get over the hurt that persistence caused me recently.
I'm afraid to 'keep at it' because I'm afraid of being hurt again.

I haven't wanted to go to bed all week.
I think that's mostly because of school.
At least, I don't think it has much to do with this, because I didn't want to sleep last week, either.
I should go to bed.

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But, see, the worst bit is there is no relationship. I've only talked to her once in nearly seven years, on Tuesday. But I want there to be a relationship. She's less of an unknown quantity than all these other girls who aren't interested in me. I've had a crush on her since I met her.

-smiles- I'm trying to think of a clever quip about tacos and exploding, but it's not coming to me...