A Darker Shade Of Pale

[jackofallgeeks]

It never fails. Just as I'm clearing my bed off to get to sleep, and re-arranging the obstacle course around my desk for the night (so as I'm sure to have lost all important papers before morning), there's a tentative knock at the door, and a red-eyed Rose steps in, asking if we could talk.

Rose had been going out with Trevor this year. I say 'had been' because, tonight, he dumped her. She had gone up to his room soon after returning from room selection, and they had had a reasonably 'normal' night 9though, apparently, he's been mentioning a possible break-up fot a little while now). As the night was ending, he said that they should talk - because he thought they should break up. True to form for recent break-ups, he gave the line that 'he didn't know why he'd started going out with her' - not that he was mad with her or anything, but that he'd lost 'that feeling' and such.

Rose came to me a few hours later, just to let me know what'd happened, and I think cause she needed someone to talk to - just to tell someone. I offered her mocha and she accepted (that jacket to Michaela, if you will) and then we sat, and talked, and in the end I think she felt better about it.

This, generally, is what I hope I'm not setting myself up for with Claire. I really like the girl, and I really think I want it to work. But as I told another friend earlier, I'm rather paranoid about relationships, and I have this sinking suspicion that, eventually, I'm going to skrew it up, one way or another. I don't look for that to happen, and I hope I am only paranoid, but I'm sure I'll be a lucky man if I survive College and never have any girl-troubles.

Time will tell, I suppose.

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

Sorry for your friend Rose. I hope she feels better.

As for you and Claire, I wouldn't worry so much. Worrying, as I found in my relationship with Daniel, only put a strain on things and led, indirectly, to our breakup. Talk with the girl, but don't just worry privately. These things are always best handled by the two of you.

Exactly!...

[serenabuny.livejournal.com]

Worry adds to strain. Period. I know I say don't worry a lot but really. If we all sat around worrying that we were going crazy and that you would kill someone you WILL drive yourself mad and poor victim is left bleeding to death wondering what the hell happened. Maybe I'll make you a poster that says in bright cheery florescent colors "Don't worry! Be happy!". Don't jump on the horse expecting to fall because the horse senses that and casually bucks you off. "Ride and never worry 'bout the fall"...