(no subject)

[jackofallgeeks]

So...

I saw a blonde girl in Army fatigues this morning on my way in to work. She had her hair short and pulled back, and kind of reminded me of Claire. It was a bitter-sweet sort, 'cause I haven't really talked with Claire in a while...

Things got darker when I got in to work. I was supposed to meet with David to sort out the access troubles I've been having in the labs, but Bonnie pulled me into her office first thing. She sat me down and told me that the 'lapse' in my 'productivity' was unacceptable, and strongly implied that if I couldn't make a satisfactory account of my time then there would be major negative consequences. I told her about the fact that my passwords had been invalidated, but she said that "wasn't good enough," and that I should have gotten it sorted out sooner. I can't stand her! This just isn't worth it.

I got together earlier with Alan T, another CompSci guy here. We were supposed to be sorting things for Senior Design, which roughly translates to having a few beers and complaining about the School. I told him how Bonnie was getting on my case again, and how it was just compounding on everything else. I told him about Meghan, and how I had to tell her I couldn't go to the Spring Formal with her, even as friends, because I'd already promised to drive Curtis to another Magic event. She'd been pretty let down, and that hurt. And how I'd ordered flowers for Suzannah -- three roses for her birthday next week -- but I just don't know any more, because I don't know if she even cares. And that all let to how I'm always "a great guy for someone else," and how sometimes I'm afraid the girl I'm looking for doesn't even exist, and how I really miss how I felt in Ohio. And the next thing I knew, he was kissing me on the mouth. And I don't know how to say this, but...

April Fools! Yup, that's it, that's my prank. I got the idea a few days ago, though I didn't get the time I'd wanted to really refine it. I wrote most of it up this evening in Cryptography while my professor tried to figure out what the variable k was. I'd considered at one time trying write something like "I had sex tonight," but I figured that a homo-erotic kiss in the throes of despair was probably more believable than tossing aside the whole "abstinence until marriage" thing that I've held for the last 22 years (well, at least the last 10, as I don't know I was very interested in sex before that). Absurd, sure, but just believable enough that I might pull it off.

So, as reward for my efforts, I'd appreciate if anyone who got this far could Comment and leave me their thoughts -- did you fall for it? Did you know something was up? Were you on your toes and prepared for April Fools? And anything else you might want to add. Comments are screened until sometime Friday to preserve the integrity of my ruse.

Just to clear up some facts I twisted: I did see a blonde girl in Army fatigues this morning, and she did remind me of Claire, but it was all good. In fact, though it'd be nice to be in better touch with her, I did talk to Claire but a few days ago, and everything's fine.

Also, I do hate my job, but Bonnie isn't giving me a hard time; she wouldn't know if there was a lapse in my productivity even if she watched me day in and day out. She is getting on my nerves because she wants some kind of a "year-end report" before I go, but that's to be expected. I have been having password issues, but it's CPIT's fault, not mine, and David's the only one that would know or care -- and he doesn't. Care. He does know. He's cool.

I did have to tell Meghan I couldn't go to the dance with her, and it was because of already promising Curtis, and I do think she was a little disappointed, but not as badly as I made it sound, and I wasn't too torn by it, either. I am upset I can't go, as it would have been fun, and I like getting dressed up. But I gave my word, and already told other people I'd be there to help run the event. And Meghan agreed with me (without me mentioning it) that a gentleman is bound by his word (though she then suggested that I COULD tel them that she'd gotten really upset and I just couldn't leave her like that, but it was in good fun).

I did buy Suzannah flowers, three yellow roses to be delivered to her on her birthday. And I am a little bit unsure of where she stands as regards me, but not as bad as I might have made it seem. And not as bad as it's been before. It hurts sometimes, but we're still friendly when we see each other. I still have hope, and sometimes the hope hurts, but I think I'm going to be OK either way. She has a lot on her plate right now, and even at that I'm going to be gone for the next two years, but I think I may try to establish what there is or is not between us this Summer.

And I do miss really feeling that I am loved, the way I did in Ohio with Kate and Meredith, and sometimes I do get scared that She doesn't exist, and sometimes the 'great guy for someone else' does get to me, but not as badly as I presented here.

Oh, and there is no Alan T in my Computer Science program. However, there once was a man named Alan Turing who set down the foundations of computing as we know it today, and aided the Allies greatly in World War Two, who was gay. So, just a bit of history there for you. (And, to be fair, when his sexuality came to light, he was faced with either imprisonment or chemical 'treatment' for his 'condition', and later killed by eating a cyanide-laced apple. I bet it was a MacIntosh.)

I wanted to give the subject as "Timing is Everything," but I thought that might give it away too much. I guess I have a few hours, though, to find something better. Posting at 0:01:24 on 04/01/05 would just be foolish if I want any chance to catch anyone...

Comments

[photoholic62.livejournal.com]

I was fine with it til we got to the kiss, then I knew it was an April 1 joke.