Dam I feel like a bastard....

[jackofallgeeks]

I just sent Claire a letter saying I telling her how I needed her. I feel so selfish for it. I fear it'll put pressure on her that doesn't need to be there. I care about her dearly, yes, but she's her own person. I'm sure I won't die without her, and the 'need' I feel is temporary - I feel scared and alone and I just need someone here to fix that. It's so dam selfish. It's the twisted ramblings of a dramatic mind under too much stress. I don't want anything between me and Claire to change - I love everything the way it is between us. I'm still just hurting, and that e-mail was another cry for help.

I did mean the rest, Claire, but you must realize that I over-dramatize alot, especially when I'm stressed or tired or excited. It may be wise to take a bit of everything I say with some salt....

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

It's hardly selfish to need another person...try "human". Much as people like to tout self-sufficiency, I don't think most of us would be very happy, well-adjusted people if not for our need for others. I, for one, would love to hear that someone I loved needed me, and I'm sure Claire doesn't find the sentiment the least bit selfish on your part.

I hope you get to see her, though, Andrew. I hope you get to rest or cry or whatever you need to do. Good luck with it.

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[serenabuny.livejournal.com]

Selfish indeed(snort). Come now, do you think having you say you needed me would put pressure on me? Negative pressure? My Lord do you have a lot to learn about me ^_^. It's not selfish to reach out to others when you're in need or pain. It's logical. Humans were created to help each other, not be little hermits who are super human... Even if it is caused by pressure and stress then I want to help ease that, ne? Get you back to normal shall we say... I have a nice couch right here...

Thaaank You.

[starlight1184.livejournal.com]

Geez. Thanks. I wasn't going to say it, since I thought it should come from you. But yeah. I like the "selfish indeed(snort)" part the best. Maybe he'll believe _you_ when you say it's not selfish to ask for help or reach out to people, and especially specific people when you need something that only they can offer. Case in point. So thank you for (hopefully) knocking some sense into him.