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jackofallgeeksI love this weather.
There are few things as soothing as walking in the rain.
One of them is getting warm and dry afterward.
Three Exams down, three left to go. Along with a pseudo-paper and a pseudo-project.
I'm afraid that I may not do stellar as far as grades go this semester.
I'm even more afraid that I don't care. I mean, the grading system is so... subjective to begin with. What one teacher may call an A might be a C to another Teacher. If you fudge your way enough to get a B instead of a D, what's that mean? If you cram all night for a final, only to forget everything right after the test -- so what?
I think (and some agree) that my time homeschooling affected two things. The first is a further disdain for the formalized schooling which academics have taken to. Not school itself, mind you, but rather the way in which it is implemented. People don't learn in that environment, and if they do I would argue it is in spite of rather than due to the form which school has taken.
Secondly (and quite related, in fact), I think it's given me more of an appreciation for learning per se. I like learning. I like understanding something knew. Personally, I'm a fan of abstractions -- perhapse why I enjoy Math in spite of itself. Algebra was my favorite mathematics, what with variables and generalized forms... But I digress. As an example, I suppose, take my Data Structures class. The teacher was an idiot. Some of you may have heard this -- I was amazed he could tie his shoes in the morning. Anyways, I got upset because the class (2hrs a day, twice a week) was a waste of my time. I could learn more just sitting with the book in my room for half an hour. I had half a mind to do just that instead. My friends said, "Hey, at least it's an easy A." So what? If I don't learn the material, what good is the grade? It's a meaningless symbol.
So, right, I'm afraid I might not get the 3.5 I did last semester. But, I'm confident that I have learned the material, and I intend to keep my books and refer back to them in the hopes of gaining a better understanding.
Three exams down, three to go.
Then I'm half-way through College.
Scary.
There are few things as soothing as walking in the rain.
One of them is getting warm and dry afterward.
Three Exams down, three left to go. Along with a pseudo-paper and a pseudo-project.
I'm afraid that I may not do stellar as far as grades go this semester.
I'm even more afraid that I don't care. I mean, the grading system is so... subjective to begin with. What one teacher may call an A might be a C to another Teacher. If you fudge your way enough to get a B instead of a D, what's that mean? If you cram all night for a final, only to forget everything right after the test -- so what?
I think (and some agree) that my time homeschooling affected two things. The first is a further disdain for the formalized schooling which academics have taken to. Not school itself, mind you, but rather the way in which it is implemented. People don't learn in that environment, and if they do I would argue it is in spite of rather than due to the form which school has taken.
Secondly (and quite related, in fact), I think it's given me more of an appreciation for learning per se. I like learning. I like understanding something knew. Personally, I'm a fan of abstractions -- perhapse why I enjoy Math in spite of itself. Algebra was my favorite mathematics, what with variables and generalized forms... But I digress. As an example, I suppose, take my Data Structures class. The teacher was an idiot. Some of you may have heard this -- I was amazed he could tie his shoes in the morning. Anyways, I got upset because the class (2hrs a day, twice a week) was a waste of my time. I could learn more just sitting with the book in my room for half an hour. I had half a mind to do just that instead. My friends said, "Hey, at least it's an easy A." So what? If I don't learn the material, what good is the grade? It's a meaningless symbol.
So, right, I'm afraid I might not get the 3.5 I did last semester. But, I'm confident that I have learned the material, and I intend to keep my books and refer back to them in the hopes of gaining a better understanding.
Three exams down, three to go.
Then I'm half-way through College.
Scary.
