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Apr. 1st, 2005 01:17 amSo...
I saw a blonde girl in Army fatigues this morning on my way in to work. She had her hair short and pulled back, and kind of reminded me of Claire. It was a bitter-sweet sort, 'cause I haven't really talked with Claire in a while...
Things got darker when I got in to work. I was supposed to meet with David to sort out the access troubles I've been having in the labs, but Bonnie pulled me into her office first thing. She sat me down and told me that the 'lapse' in my 'productivity' was unacceptable, and strongly implied that if I couldn't make a satisfactory account of my time then there would be major negative consequences. I told her about the fact that my passwords had been invalidated, but she said that "wasn't good enough," and that I should have gotten it sorted out sooner. I can't stand her! This just isn't worth it.
I got together earlier with Alan T, another CompSci guy here. We were supposed to be sorting things for Senior Design, which roughly translates to having a few beers and complaining about the School. I told him how Bonnie was getting on my case again, and how it was just compounding on everything else. I told him about Meghan, and how I had to tell her I couldn't go to the Spring Formal with her, even as friends, because I'd already promised to drive Curtis to another Magic event. She'd been pretty let down, and that hurt. And how I'd ordered flowers for Suzannah -- three roses for her birthday next week -- but I just don't know any more, because I don't know if she even cares. And that all let to how I'm always "a great guy for someone else," and how sometimes I'm afraid the girl I'm looking for doesn't even exist, and how I really miss how I felt in Ohio. And the next thing I knew, he was kissing me on the mouth. ( And I kind of liked it. )
I saw a blonde girl in Army fatigues this morning on my way in to work. She had her hair short and pulled back, and kind of reminded me of Claire. It was a bitter-sweet sort, 'cause I haven't really talked with Claire in a while...
Things got darker when I got in to work. I was supposed to meet with David to sort out the access troubles I've been having in the labs, but Bonnie pulled me into her office first thing. She sat me down and told me that the 'lapse' in my 'productivity' was unacceptable, and strongly implied that if I couldn't make a satisfactory account of my time then there would be major negative consequences. I told her about the fact that my passwords had been invalidated, but she said that "wasn't good enough," and that I should have gotten it sorted out sooner. I can't stand her! This just isn't worth it.
I got together earlier with Alan T, another CompSci guy here. We were supposed to be sorting things for Senior Design, which roughly translates to having a few beers and complaining about the School. I told him how Bonnie was getting on my case again, and how it was just compounding on everything else. I told him about Meghan, and how I had to tell her I couldn't go to the Spring Formal with her, even as friends, because I'd already promised to drive Curtis to another Magic event. She'd been pretty let down, and that hurt. And how I'd ordered flowers for Suzannah -- three roses for her birthday next week -- but I just don't know any more, because I don't know if she even cares. And that all let to how I'm always "a great guy for someone else," and how sometimes I'm afraid the girl I'm looking for doesn't even exist, and how I really miss how I felt in Ohio. And the next thing I knew, he was kissing me on the mouth. ( And I kind of liked it. )
