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Sad t'night.
I don't know. T'day was realy cool. Really happy.
Josh, my brother, stayed the night last night. We played Soul Calibur and Bloody Roar and MtG... Today, Zack and Anastasiya came with me to my prents' house for another family get-together. Food and fun and family... We played Magic, Jenny made Pumpkin Cheesecake, which was really good. The ride up was cool, we had fun and listened to Voltaire and things...

Zack came back from break early. He shouldn't have been here until t'morrow or Monday or something... He had a nervous breakdown while he was at home, something school-related, and he's been advised by a doctor to pull out for an unspecified amount of time on medical leave of abscence. He came back to get things sorted out with the school and pack up. He leaves on Thursday.

That's really not cool. Zack is one of my favorite roomies, and a really cool guy in general. I don't want him to go. Yeah, we only have another couple weeks -- only exams after he leaves, and yeah, maybe he'll be back next semester... maybe... But tat sucks, hard. I don't know. I'm gonna miss him.

And, I don't know, Anastasiya and I have been broken up since Monday... And it was all my doing, anyways... I don't know... Just feeling a bit lonely t'night.

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Finally got that email to Suzannah sent off, in reply to the one she sent me nearly two weeks ago. It was quite a volume. Getting it off made me feel better, for a short time. I like feeling connected to people.

Still a bit down. Though, as Mel and Elizabeth have pointed out, I tink I'm starting to believe that, with time, all things will pass.
I'll try not to dwell too deeply on that, at least not t'night.

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I finally found a copy of 'We 3' on Shareaza. I was sure I'd had it before, but I couldn't find it anywhere in my library. So, I've spent a good part of the last few weeks scouring the network for it, and I just got it downoaded. They play it at the end of 'Chasing Amy,' and I've loved it ever since. This song makes me happy. Which is funny, considering the song...

More Thoughts on Us

So, here's the deal -- I'm really not all that upset about my breakup with Anastasiya. I mean, there were several reasons that the relationship was making me uncomfortable. And it was really all my doing this time. As most of you (but not Ms. Highest Star) know, I had a pretty harsh breakup a year ago, and that, yes, took a while to get over. This isn't anything like that. Almost all the factors are different, and I actually hope I didn't put Claire in the possition that I feel I'm in now.  ^_^;;  Not, you know, that I'm in a harsh spot, but, well, I'm trying not to be TOO happy about being single again.

Not that we had a bad relationship, or anything, but... Well, most of that is covered in the link above. I like Anastasiya as a friend, and I think it's best kept that way. That, and I have every intension of pursuing Ms. Suzannah, who is a very intelligent, rather pretty, Catholic Sophomore English Major over at my brother's school. I knew her before I even met Anastasiya, I was interested in her before then, and we've kept in friendly communication all semester. I litterally wrote her a HUGE letter which I just sent off -- there's reasons it took two weeks of writing. And it's not that it was anything particularly important or heavy, but she's alot of fun to talk with.

So, yeah, I'm going to get a little lonely now and again. It's just the way things seem to run. And yeah, I'm going to miss some of what Anastasiya and I had, but that's to be expected. I'm really doing quite well, myself, not that my recent posts would show that... Perhapse I feel compelled to look a little broken up about it for her sake, but then, I definately don't want to rub salt in the wound by being too happy about the breakup, either. I don't know.

A Beth by any other name...

Randomly, and I know this has probably come up in Leslie's journal, but... Beth (Highest Star) and Beth (Oceans of Jade), how should we (or at least I) keep track between the two of you? I'd hate to say 'Beth H' or 'Beth G' or anything like that, but... -grins- And I don't suppose Beth H would appreciate the nickname my lil'sister Beth (aaaaah, too many of them!) gave her so many years ago... -grins- Anyways...

Oh, and Highest Star, did you know that Jenny had one of these, too? She hasn't written in it for a while, but maybe you could convince her to get back into it... Or something.

I go now.

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Addendum: Al and Boo. *giggles*

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