Pieces of You

Well, let's see, there's stuff to say...

Chatted with Stacey this morning (and when I say morning, I mean Afternoon). We talked about some stupid stuff (classes, music, The Tick...) and about some baubles she'd gathered t'day at an olde Brittish antique shop. We get along rather well -- looking forward to her getting out here. She had t'go make a salmon dinner before her friend, Quetzalcoatl, got there. I have no idea who he is, but he gets points just for the name.

Also chatted with Claire after lunch. Saddly, she didn't get into UofM, but U-Mass offered her shinies, and so she's going there. I think it's really good for her, too. Maybe I'm biased, but I think she'll get better treatment as a student at U-Mass. And all the clubs they have! Medieval Swordsmanship, Skydiving, Gaming, Snowboarding, Paintball...! FEEL the Jealousy. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little miffed that she wouldn't be living around the corner next year, but I'm really happy for her. And it's not like I'll never hear from her again, either.  ^_^;;

Dude, I can't keep up with Shareaza. It's DLing songs like a thing possessed! I have almost 650 songs left to sort through!  O.o  Granted, this is after about three weeks of letting it run on and off, but.... Also, I think I'm going to build that Gothic Architecture CD, though I'm undecided as to whether or not I'll finish sorting through these songs first or not.

I'm not ready for the Real World.
I'm almost there. Two years and I'll no longer be a Student.
I still feel like a child.
The Real World isn't really all that much different from where I live now.
I just have to convince myself that it isn't ready for me.

I started writing my Novel again. Again. I think I may get somewhere with this one. I think I should put some time into developing what the world they're in is like, though, and solidify WHO these characters are. Then let it run.

And Note: Evanescence sounds alot like Lacuna Coil. Except not Italian.

Pieces of Us

So, yeah, Claire's not going to be in Maryland next year.
Instead of being three hours south and out of reach, she'll be four hours north and out of reach.
Not that it matters, though, really...

Heh, I'm sure people are getting tired of hearing me say 'We're over,' but I haven't convinced myself yet. I'm still in love with her. I still want to hold her in may arms, and kiss her lips, and show her how much she means to me. It isn't just for religious curiosity that I'm taking a class on marriage rules next year.

I get scared... Like I'm not important to her. that she doesn't need nor want me around. It shouldn't matter -- my love for her isn't dependant on how she feels for me. I love her simply for who I know she is. But I can't stand to lose friends. I don't want her to not be in my life. I was scared when we broke up that I would never see her again. I'm scared now that I have nothing to offer her. And I'm scared that when she goes to Massachusetts, she'll find even less reason to have me around.

So, yeah.

Pieces of Me

And then there's Stacey.
I met her randomly through LiveJournal.
She stumbled upon one of my dark-musings pages and related to it.
She added me as a friend, and I did likewise.
We started e-mailing eachother, and chatting on AIM.
We get along really well.

We share alot of interests -- Roleplaying, bladed items, fantasy... We have similar opinions on alot of things, and we're both rather affectionate, just as people. In alot of ways, it feels alot like when Claire and I met -- we're two rather lonely people (we're each rather removed from our friends, as she's currently in the UK) who have found a companion, for a time. The fact that she's going to be moving here to DC this summer and transferring to UofM in the fall doesn't hurt things.

Before anyone gets any ideas (as people seem to be prone to), I really am -only- interested in friendship. I think she and I could have alot of fun together, just hanging out and stuff. But I'd be lying if I said I didn't... A part of me wants her to be 'more,' but I dont' know that it would work... I think, as friends, we work really well. But as is obvious, even my clostst friends don't often fit what I'm 'looking for' in a girl. Like I said, I'm lonely, I want someone... I think just having a good friend near by will make me feel better.

<sarcasm>Yeah, my life's not complicated at all.</sarcasm>

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Thunderstorm. Rock.

I learned to fly, but you are still shooting the sky...

Wow. I like Fisher. They're alot darker than I thought.
I find humor that this makes me necesarily like them more.  ^_^;;
I'm such a weirdo.
Nothing tops Miseryland, though.

I've also decided I'll probably like Evanescence, because of their similarity to Lacuna Coil, who I'm quite enamoured with. They both have a Dark-Rock flavor to them. At the same time, I'm quite put out whenever either band had their Male-type screaming out. That's definately not my thing.

I'm DLing more songs be the more-Gothic artists I have here (Sixty-Nine Eyes, At The Gates, Lacrimosa, Bella Morte...) in anticipation of making that Gothic Architecture.

Ye-ah, I think we can all figure along which lines it is my taste in music falls...
-laughs- Once, my brother Josh told me one of my CDs was too dark for him, and I remember thinking "I don't know, it's actually kinda mild, relatively..."
Josh is a cool guy.
I can't wait for my family to get Home.

I also ordered Chinese, and got free fried wonton. It tastes ALOT like gyoza. ALOT.
I love me some gyoza. Love it.

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Going against the grain, it seems I rather enjoy Russian songs. This is notable as I have a penchant towards lyrics I can understand. However, I have found some Japanese and German, even Brittish, songs that I enjoy. Maybe I just like her voice... I would also argue against Louis and Leslie, in that I think Tatu does a nice job of singing, and I quote "Ya Sholsa S Uma" as proof.

"Robot," however, just sounds goofy.  -giggles-  I think I'll keep it.

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Facetious and Factitious are not related.
In most cases.  -grins-