Pieces of Us
Mar. 29th, 2003 03:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksSo, yeah, Claire's not going to be in Maryland next year.
Instead of being three hours south and out of reach, she'll be four hours north and out of reach.
Not that it matters, though, really...
Heh, I'm sure people are getting tired of hearing me say 'We're over,' but I haven't convinced myself yet. I'm still in love with her. I still want to hold her in may arms, and kiss her lips, and show her how much she means to me. It isn't just for religious curiosity that I'm taking a class on marriage rules next year.
I get scared... Like I'm not important to her. that she doesn't need nor want me around. It shouldn't matter -- my love for her isn't dependant on how she feels for me. I love her simply for who I know she is. But I can't stand to lose friends. I don't want her to not be in my life. I was scared when we broke up that I would never see her again. I'm scared now that I have nothing to offer her. And I'm scared that when she goes to Massachusetts, she'll find even less reason to have me around.
So, yeah.
Instead of being three hours south and out of reach, she'll be four hours north and out of reach.
Not that it matters, though, really...
Heh, I'm sure people are getting tired of hearing me say 'We're over,' but I haven't convinced myself yet. I'm still in love with her. I still want to hold her in may arms, and kiss her lips, and show her how much she means to me. It isn't just for religious curiosity that I'm taking a class on marriage rules next year.
I get scared... Like I'm not important to her. that she doesn't need nor want me around. It shouldn't matter -- my love for her isn't dependant on how she feels for me. I love her simply for who I know she is. But I can't stand to lose friends. I don't want her to not be in my life. I was scared when we broke up that I would never see her again. I'm scared now that I have nothing to offer her. And I'm scared that when she goes to Massachusetts, she'll find even less reason to have me around.
So, yeah.
