jackofallgeeks | A step backwards

Current Mood: Suddenly and not-quite inexplicably very lonely.

I hate feeling this way. I hate feeling unwanted and useless.
I can't stand thinking that no one out there knows me enough to tell when I'm unhappy without me making some cry for help.
I hate the fact that I can't cry.
I hate having nothing intelligent to say.
I hate making these posts.
I hate feeling so vulnerable, I hate feeling like someone somewhere is going to feel sorry for me.
I want affection, I want someone to care. I don't want pity.
I don't even really want much of anything more than someone to talk to.
I hate feeling like no one wants to listen.

I should just go.

Thank you both greatly, Rachel and Leslie. You have pulled me from the pit, and shown me that I'm neither alone nor worthless. These sour moods come out of nowhere -- I just need a friend now and again.