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[jackofallgeeks]

It occurs to me that I don't want to forget.
But I am.

I want to remember all the good times she and I had.
I feel like I'm perhaps losing sight of who she is.
I'm so caught up in what isn't there, that I can't see what is.

And I was doing so good, too.

She's a wonderful girl. I should have more faith in her than I do, especially faith in her as a friend.
I still don't want to tip my hand, but...
I want to be OK with 'just friends' again.
I'll tell her I love her, and I wish we were still together, but if that can't be then I have to move on.
I don't want to mess up and lose the friendship which I know we have, and it is wonderful.

Please, keep me in your prayers.

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

You have them all, my dear one. Good luck with it all.

[otakulk.livejournal.com]

"I feel like I'm perhaps losing sight of who she is."

Thats because you are. You're supposed to. People grow and change, and your preception of them has to be open, not fixed. Otherwise you'll expect.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

"Thats because you are. You're supposed to. People grow and change..."
You misunderstand. It's not that she isn't who I remember her to be. It's not a metter of her, or I, changing and me not being able to cope. It's me not recognizing who she is. Do you follow? It's like it doesn't even register...

"Otherwise you'll expect."
Was that a completed thought? I don't follow.

[otakulk.livejournal.com]

"It's me not recognizing who she is."

Ahh I see, that kinda like expecting.