Snowfall

[jackofallgeeks]

"Fuuuuh-ck!" he yelled out into the cold night. The chill wind whirled around him as he trekked up the hill, gesturing and talking to himself. The night was otherwise silent, still and frosted. The the light from the street lamps bounced off the clouds and the snow, casting the scene in odd shades of blues and reds. "Why the fuck can't think make sense, just once!?" He threw himself down onto the bench, heedless of the snow. The damp soaked into his pants, but he didn't notice. He turned his eyes to the sky above, as though the Heavens could offer an answer. "Why can't this be simple? Why can't I at the very least know what she's thinking. If I knew she thought about me two, if I knew I wasn't just 'another guy,' things would be different." His voice slowly grew quiet, until he was almost whispering to himself. "And what if she isn't? Would that make a difference? Or would I go on tormenting myself anyways?" He glanced about himself, brushed the snow off the bench beside him. "Maybe I could... live in her world. Forget where I came from, who I am. At least then I would be with her." He hung his head. "Then I would be with her... but wouldn't I just be fighting the whole time to get back to my world. Wouldn't I end up fighting her to be who I am?" He jumped to his feet, snow swirling around him on the frenetic wind. "Why can't I love someone I can be with!? Why does it have to be like this!? Even if we tried it wouldn't work, and you know it!" he accused the night sky. "I just want to forget for a little while. Forget who I am, who she is, and... And just express my affection." "I guess that's too much to ask..."

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: The whole of the world sings in chorus with you, Andrew - the lonely bitch of it all is that you can only hear your own voice.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

"...the lonely bitch of it all is that you can only hear your own voice..."
The truth of that statement is more than can be expressed.

[otakulk.livejournal.com]

that's a wickedly cool passage.

"And what if she isn't? Would that make a difference? Or would I go on tormenting myself anyways?"

The torment would continue.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

"...that's a wickedly cool passage..."
-Grin-
I try.

"...The torment would continue..."
We all know it.