Three Conversations.
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jackofallgeeksI've recently had three very nice conversations, all of which from people who I really would not have expected them from.
The first was from Aaron, who I've known since meeting him at Freshman Orientation last year. We sat and talked and talked and talked - from midnight until nearly three AM. We talked about girls, religion, sex, and gaming. Aaron, who's dating a girl in Australia, and a Presbitarian, and not a virgin, made many, many good points, and got me to thinking. It was really quite a deep, unexpected, and refreshing conversation. As far as gaming goes, we have the same tastes, generally, so that was no big event.
Next, was with Nifer. Nifer always scares me, because I rather care for her and respect her, but it seems to me her ideals and such are so far removed from mine, I'm afraid she'll always think less of me for who I am. We spoke of love, in particular, the difference between "in love" and Love as such. My argument was that Love is a concious choice, and act of the will - you CHOOSE to Love - where as "in love" is just another passion, like anger or jealousy, which comes and goes without much direction from us. However, Nifer pointed out where she Loved some who pained her - who she'd rather not love - and made me realize that I'd be in similar situations. Again, it made me think, and I fear I haven't been thinking much at all, lately.
Finally, I spoke with Meredith, my cousin and our fine friend Rachel's little sister. Mere is an amazing SIX years younger than me, and now in 8th grade (boy did THAT make me feel old). She seems to be the stereotypical 13-year old girl. If I didn't know better, I'd say she was a blonde, from talking to her. Rachel and I would often laugh (and shudder) about how she was a very pretty girl, and she knew it, and as such would be quite a handful at 13. Funny, that.
In either case, the odd point was when we started talking about Youth Group. She seemed to really like it, and said she wanted to learn more about her faith. Maybe I'm jaded, but it was refreshing to hear someone interested in their faith like that, and I offered a few suggestions, told her what I'd been doing, and let her know I'd love to help in any way. It was really kinda cool.
In other news, life's not so bad. I've been a bit frustrated, and felt a bit depressed - all in all not feeling "me." The above conversations have helped, though, and I think I'm climbing out of it. Classes are going OK, though thay aren't all that interesting yet. My family's here until Saturday morning - we're having a birthday party for my mom Friday night. Friday afternoon I start my job at JP2. Thursady the ACM club is getting started up again, and Louis is in town for the semester on co-op. I haven't seen the big lug in over a year, I think. We're hoping to get together over the weekend sometime when we're not both working.
I actually had a half-decent conversation with Ms. Becky Croft the other day. It was cut shjort cause she had to have dinner, but it was more that "Hi, how are you," so that was cool. Went and had lunch with Brooklyn and Katie and Trevor and Matt. That was cool, seeing as I was going to eat by myself, otherwise. *deep breath* Getting used to this College thing again - summer skrews everything up, you know?
The first was from Aaron, who I've known since meeting him at Freshman Orientation last year. We sat and talked and talked and talked - from midnight until nearly three AM. We talked about girls, religion, sex, and gaming. Aaron, who's dating a girl in Australia, and a Presbitarian, and not a virgin, made many, many good points, and got me to thinking. It was really quite a deep, unexpected, and refreshing conversation. As far as gaming goes, we have the same tastes, generally, so that was no big event.
Next, was with Nifer. Nifer always scares me, because I rather care for her and respect her, but it seems to me her ideals and such are so far removed from mine, I'm afraid she'll always think less of me for who I am. We spoke of love, in particular, the difference between "in love" and Love as such. My argument was that Love is a concious choice, and act of the will - you CHOOSE to Love - where as "in love" is just another passion, like anger or jealousy, which comes and goes without much direction from us. However, Nifer pointed out where she Loved some who pained her - who she'd rather not love - and made me realize that I'd be in similar situations. Again, it made me think, and I fear I haven't been thinking much at all, lately.
Finally, I spoke with Meredith, my cousin and our fine friend Rachel's little sister. Mere is an amazing SIX years younger than me, and now in 8th grade (boy did THAT make me feel old). She seems to be the stereotypical 13-year old girl. If I didn't know better, I'd say she was a blonde, from talking to her. Rachel and I would often laugh (and shudder) about how she was a very pretty girl, and she knew it, and as such would be quite a handful at 13. Funny, that.
In either case, the odd point was when we started talking about Youth Group. She seemed to really like it, and said she wanted to learn more about her faith. Maybe I'm jaded, but it was refreshing to hear someone interested in their faith like that, and I offered a few suggestions, told her what I'd been doing, and let her know I'd love to help in any way. It was really kinda cool.
In other news, life's not so bad. I've been a bit frustrated, and felt a bit depressed - all in all not feeling "me." The above conversations have helped, though, and I think I'm climbing out of it. Classes are going OK, though thay aren't all that interesting yet. My family's here until Saturday morning - we're having a birthday party for my mom Friday night. Friday afternoon I start my job at JP2. Thursady the ACM club is getting started up again, and Louis is in town for the semester on co-op. I haven't seen the big lug in over a year, I think. We're hoping to get together over the weekend sometime when we're not both working.
I actually had a half-decent conversation with Ms. Becky Croft the other day. It was cut shjort cause she had to have dinner, but it was more that "Hi, how are you," so that was cool. Went and had lunch with Brooklyn and Katie and Trevor and Matt. That was cool, seeing as I was going to eat by myself, otherwise. *deep breath* Getting used to this College thing again - summer skrews everything up, you know?
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I've recently had three very nice conversations, all of which from people who I really would not have expected them from.
<lj-cut text="Cut for Convenience">The first was from Aaron, who I've known since meeting him at Freshman Orientation last year. We sat and talked and talked and talked - from midnight until nearly three AM. We talked about girls, religion, sex, and gaming. Aaron, who's dating a girl in Australia, and a Presbitarian, and not a virgin, made many, many good points, and got me to thinking. It was really quite a deep, unexpected, and refreshing conversation. As far as gaming goes, we have the same tastes, generally, so that was no big event.
Next, was with Nifer. Nifer always scares me, because I rather care for her and respect her, but it seems to me her ideals and such are so far removed from mine, I'm afraid she'll always think less of me for who I am. We spoke of love, in particular, the difference between "in love" and Love as such. My argument was that Love is a concious choice, and act of the will - you CHOOSE to Love - where as "in love" is just another passion, like anger or jealousy, which comes and goes without much direction from us. However, Nifer pointed out where she Loved some who pained her - who she'd rather not love - and made me realize that I'd be in similar situations. Again, it made me think, and I fear I haven't been thinking much at all, lately.
Finally, I spoke with Meredith, my cousin and our fine friend Rachel's little sister. Mere is an amazing SIX years younger than me, and now in 8th grade (boy did THAT make me feel old). She seems to be the stereotypical 13-year old girl. If I didn't know better, I'd say she was a blonde, from talking to her. Rachel and I would often laugh (and shudder) about how she was a very pretty girl, and she knew it, and as such would be quite a handful at 13. Funny, that.
In either case, the odd point was when we started talking about Youth Group. She seemed to really like it, and said she wanted to <i>learn more about her faith</i>. Maybe I'm jaded, but it was refreshing to hear someone interested in their faith like that, and I offered a few suggestions, told her what I'd been doing, and let her know I'd love to help in any way. It was really kinda cool.</lj-cut>
In other news, life's not so bad. I've been a bit frustrated, and felt a bit depressed - all in all not feeling "me." The above conversations have helped, though, and I think I'm climbing out of it. Classes are going OK, though thay aren't all that interesting yet. My family's here until Saturday morning - we're having a birthday party for my mom Friday night. Friday afternoon I start my job at JP2. Thursady the ACM club is getting started up again, and Louis is in town for the semester on co-op. I haven't seen the big lug in over a year, I think. We're hoping to get together over the weekend sometime when we're not both working.
I actually had a half-decent conversation with Ms. Becky Croft the other day. It was cut shjort cause she had to have dinner, but it was more that "Hi, how are you," so that was cool. Went and had lunch with Brooklyn and Katie and Trevor and Matt. That was cool, seeing as I was going to eat by myself, otherwise. *deep breath* Getting used to this College thing again - summer skrews everything up, you know?
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<lj-cut text="Quiz Update"><center><text="#000088" link="#AAAFFF" vlink="#E42866" alink="#008800" leftmargin="5"><a href="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/animaniquiz.html">Which Animaniacs Character are You?</a><br><br><img src="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/mindy.gif" border=0><br>"You are inquisitive to the point of getting trampled, run over, and blinded, on a daily basis. "<br>"Why.....?"<br>"It could be due to your scientific nature. You long to learn how things work."<br>"Why.....?"<br>
"Because you really like to know things, but are prone to getting hurt."<br>"Why.....?"<br>"Because, if it wasn't for others generally taking the fall for you, you might well be dead by now! Remember, curiosity is great, but it also killed the cat. Well, in this case, the dog, Buttons, would probably be more appropriate."<br>"Okay, lady, I love you, bu-bye!"</center></lj-cut>
<lj-cut text="Cut for Convenience">The first was from Aaron, who I've known since meeting him at Freshman Orientation last year. We sat and talked and talked and talked - from midnight until nearly three AM. We talked about girls, religion, sex, and gaming. Aaron, who's dating a girl in Australia, and a Presbitarian, and not a virgin, made many, many good points, and got me to thinking. It was really quite a deep, unexpected, and refreshing conversation. As far as gaming goes, we have the same tastes, generally, so that was no big event.
Next, was with Nifer. Nifer always scares me, because I rather care for her and respect her, but it seems to me her ideals and such are so far removed from mine, I'm afraid she'll always think less of me for who I am. We spoke of love, in particular, the difference between "in love" and Love as such. My argument was that Love is a concious choice, and act of the will - you CHOOSE to Love - where as "in love" is just another passion, like anger or jealousy, which comes and goes without much direction from us. However, Nifer pointed out where she Loved some who pained her - who she'd rather not love - and made me realize that I'd be in similar situations. Again, it made me think, and I fear I haven't been thinking much at all, lately.
Finally, I spoke with Meredith, my cousin and our fine friend Rachel's little sister. Mere is an amazing SIX years younger than me, and now in 8th grade (boy did THAT make me feel old). She seems to be the stereotypical 13-year old girl. If I didn't know better, I'd say she was a blonde, from talking to her. Rachel and I would often laugh (and shudder) about how she was a very pretty girl, and she knew it, and as such would be quite a handful at 13. Funny, that.
In either case, the odd point was when we started talking about Youth Group. She seemed to really like it, and said she wanted to <i>learn more about her faith</i>. Maybe I'm jaded, but it was refreshing to hear someone interested in their faith like that, and I offered a few suggestions, told her what I'd been doing, and let her know I'd love to help in any way. It was really kinda cool.</lj-cut>
In other news, life's not so bad. I've been a bit frustrated, and felt a bit depressed - all in all not feeling "me." The above conversations have helped, though, and I think I'm climbing out of it. Classes are going OK, though thay aren't all that interesting yet. My family's here until Saturday morning - we're having a birthday party for my mom Friday night. Friday afternoon I start my job at JP2. Thursady the ACM club is getting started up again, and Louis is in town for the semester on co-op. I haven't seen the big lug in over a year, I think. We're hoping to get together over the weekend sometime when we're not both working.
I actually had a half-decent conversation with Ms. Becky Croft the other day. It was cut shjort cause she had to have dinner, but it was more that "Hi, how are you," so that was cool. Went and had lunch with Brooklyn and Katie and Trevor and Matt. That was cool, seeing as I was going to eat by myself, otherwise. *deep breath* Getting used to this College thing again - summer skrews everything up, you know?
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<lj-cut text="Quiz Update"><center><text="#000088" link="#AAAFFF" vlink="#E42866" alink="#008800" leftmargin="5"><a href="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/animaniquiz.html">Which Animaniacs Character are You?</a><br><br><img src="http://www.umich.edu/~rorder/mindy.gif" border=0><br>"You are inquisitive to the point of getting trampled, run over, and blinded, on a daily basis. "<br>"Why.....?"<br>"It could be due to your scientific nature. You long to learn how things work."<br>"Why.....?"<br>
"Because you really like to know things, but are prone to getting hurt."<br>"Why.....?"<br>"Because, if it wasn't for others generally taking the fall for you, you might well be dead by now! Remember, curiosity is great, but it also killed the cat. Well, in this case, the dog, Buttons, would probably be more appropriate."<br>"Okay, lady, I love you, bu-bye!"</center></lj-cut>
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Date: 2002-09-04 08:28 pm (UTC)She told me that she had talked to you, and I asked "what about?" and when she told me, I just laughed. I thought you may be somewhat relived that not all the Mock family is like me. :-) But yeah, she was quite pleased to have talked with you also. I think it's tough for her to live with Kate and I... because we are quite the opposite of her in many ways, this not the least. Keep talking to her, I think she'd like it. :-) Thanks darlin.
Oh... and it's gotten worse now. Kate and I both know that SHE knows that she's pretty... but she pulls that "I'm not pretty at all-no one could like me-my hair never works-I'm not popular" act... and gets all giggly and stuff. It's very interesting. You'd laugh if you saw her now... a day with her is never boring, that's for sure. And yes... I believe that somehwere deep inside her there is a blonde TRYING to get out. ;-)
Mere-mere-mere-mere...
Date: 2002-09-04 09:07 pm (UTC)And as for that "no one loves me, I'm so plain" thing - I think all girls go through it.
Or, at the very least, all Lahowskys. ^___^