Staving Off The Night

[jackofallgeeks]

So, my computer is broken. I reinstalled Windows without making sure I had all driver CDs, so it can't get to the Internet, which makes it pretty useless to me. It can't even recognize a Cat5 cable. And part of me thinks that maybe I didn't need to reinstall Windows... But that's neither here nor there.

Part of why I blog is to feel like I'm still connected. It's pretty hard for me sometimes (like now) to live by myself. I get lonely if I go too long (a few hours) without vocalizing.

I have a girlfriend now. That's pretty common knowledge now. I'm crazy about her, and it's all going really well. We get along great, and I love her family... Some of my friends have expressed concern because we're moving really fast, or because of the difficult past me and Meghan have had. I don't need help doubting, really -- my doubts have no basis but you should all know that I'm prone to despair as it is. I'm not going to rush into anything without thinking it through.

It is moving fast, but that's because anything we needed to discuss we took care of years ago. The biggest difficulties we had wee that I was busy with school out in California (and not comfortable with a distance relationship) and she felt threatened by my (many, lovely) lady friends. I'm not in school any more and she's grown over the years (she's not as insecure as she was), so none of that's an issue anymore. And we're very in love with each other.

So. Yes. Anyways. I guess there's only a couple if my friends that this is addressed to, and I've probably already cleared this up with them... I'm just lonely and this was the only topic I could come up with to talk about. I don't like being alone.

Comments

[photoholic62.livejournal.com]

I didn't know you have a girlfriend now, so thanks for the news flash!

I didn't know you changed your layout either, so I learned two things today.

I've been behind since the end of April, busy with ... well, you know what with.

Anyway, I'm happy for you, but curious why so lonely when you have a girlfriend now?

And also surprised that you're having trouble with a windows reinstall. Seems like you could do that with your eyes closed?

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

-smirk- You must've missed my recent post (http://jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com/788305.html), then, regarding my girlfriend. I've known her, Meghan, for years now, and it's going great and we're both very serious. The biggest problem has been the lack of enthusiasm on the part of some of my friends, as noted in the post above. Some friends -- Leslie and Nifer in particular -- have been very excited for me, but some others... -shrugs- They have fair reason to be concerned in that they don't know everything that's gone on the last few years, but still, I dion't need the buzz-kill.

In your defense, she and I have only been 'officially' together for about two weeks now, and you've been busy.

My layout I changed quite a while ago, though. Would you believe I got tired of being so dark? :p

Anyways, yes, I'm very happy. I was lonely last night because I'm still me, and I still get that way sometimes. I still live alone and that's still hard for me some nights. plus, Meghan lives a good two hours' drive away, and this weekend she leaves for Ohio to finish her last semester of college (that's 5 hours' drive). I really don't like being away from her.

As for the Windows reinstall: Windows itself came up nicely. No trouble at all once I determined that the drive was bad (that wasn't a hard call to make). Unfortunately, as I built the thing myself, I need to reinstall all the drivers for the motherboard, video card, wireless card, sound card... And somehow I simply can't find those CDs. I've looked *everywhere*. If I even had the wireless drivers I'd be good to go and I'd just get the rest off the internet, but I don't have that and I don't have the motherboard CD, so even the on-board ethernet isn't working! It's crazy-frustrating. This weekend I'm going to my parents' house and I'm going to comandeer some of their extra parts to at least get online long enough to get what I need, so I can get the rest of what I want. -smirk-

[photoholic62.livejournal.com]

Yes, yes, I did miss that post. Don't know why. I checked, and saw all the ones before and after it. We were out of town that day getting a CT Scan, I think, maybe that has something to do with it.

Anyway, about friends judging relationships... When Jeff and I were first together, everybody was against it, because of the age difference. Some folks were downright mean, and did their level best to break us up. We'd never make it, they said. She's taking him for a ride, they said. This will end in disaster, they said. Now, here we are, 25.5 years later still together and them? None of them are still together. Not one of the ones who were so negative about us are still together. So, it's really hard to know who are the best relationship-fortune-tellers.

I wish you the best! For your relationship, and your computer!

[otakulk.livejournal.com]

Dude I know exactly what you mean. I think it comes from growing up in large families. For me, its a good reason to have kids!