I feel fantastic.
Jul. 14th, 2008 11:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksSo earlier tonight some of you got a txt msg from me saying "I feel fantastic," and a number of such recipients asked me the reasonable question, "why."
In short, there isn't really much of a why behind it. In fact, up until the moment just before I felt compelled to send that txt the day had been rather lack-lustre. I didn't sleep well last night so I was dead on my feet all day (not a useful state when one is trying to ween oneself off of caffeine), and I got almost nothing accomplished.
This evening, though, after fiddling with the internals of my computer and straightening my house a bit (not much, mind, but a bit), it suddenly occurred to me that I was happy. I like where I am, I like who I've become, and even if I'm not terribly satisfied with being a single guy, I'm content. I'm doing fine on my own and even if I really want to have someone to share my life with and raise a family, I don't need that to feel worthwhile.
Thinking about it now, I realize that I just read XKCD this morning where it said that "I'm nothing without you" is a really fucked-up sentiment.
So, I think all that plays into my good mood. I think it probably has a lot to do with my mood.
Also, my cousin Kate is getting married in a couple of months and I got the time off work to be able to make it back alive (going or not was never a question, it was just a matter of how much I'd hate myself on Monday morning). So that has me psyched, too, as I expect to see her sisters then as well and I absolutely adore my cousins.
So, yes. I feel fantastic. I'm happy and healthy and successful and a good person.
In short, there isn't really much of a why behind it. In fact, up until the moment just before I felt compelled to send that txt the day had been rather lack-lustre. I didn't sleep well last night so I was dead on my feet all day (not a useful state when one is trying to ween oneself off of caffeine), and I got almost nothing accomplished.
This evening, though, after fiddling with the internals of my computer and straightening my house a bit (not much, mind, but a bit), it suddenly occurred to me that I was happy. I like where I am, I like who I've become, and even if I'm not terribly satisfied with being a single guy, I'm content. I'm doing fine on my own and even if I really want to have someone to share my life with and raise a family, I don't need that to feel worthwhile.
Thinking about it now, I realize that I just read XKCD this morning where it said that "I'm nothing without you" is a really fucked-up sentiment.
So, I think all that plays into my good mood. I think it probably has a lot to do with my mood.
Also, my cousin Kate is getting married in a couple of months and I got the time off work to be able to make it back alive (going or not was never a question, it was just a matter of how much I'd hate myself on Monday morning). So that has me psyched, too, as I expect to see her sisters then as well and I absolutely adore my cousins.
So, yes. I feel fantastic. I'm happy and healthy and successful and a good person.
