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[jackofallgeeks]

I just had dinner with my friend Sarah from Highschool. We went to a steak place and then walked around the boardwalk here in Virginia Beach for a while. She's practically engaged to her boyfriend it seems, but it was really good seeing her again and really... friend-like. The way it is when I see Anastasiya or Leslie. People who really care. I need to stop caring about people who don't, because this sort of thing is a whole lot more fulfilling.

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I'd have to disagree

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I'd have to disagree when you say you need to stop caring about people who don't because it's more fulfilling. Love is a whole lot more meaningful (and real) when you are love without even the slightest hope of getting something in return. (it wont let me leave my name but this is Elizabeth)

Re: I'd have to disagree

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

I think you misunderstand what I mean by 'care,' both in "I need to stop caring" and "people who don't care." For the last five years I've been trying to keep up a friendship with a couple of girls -- friendship only, mind -- who have quite succinctly ignored me. At best, one of the ladies will occasionally be around for a short, superficial conversation on AIM. Mostly, there is nothing but silence. Similarly, another once-friend told me several months back, "it's been nice, but don't talk to me again." This is less than a simple "they don't like me the way I like them." This is a negative thing, and I've wasted too much of my life on people who would sooner not know me as otherwise. This disattention doesn't make my interest more meaningful or real, it makes it hollow and hurtful. And I'm done with that.