Death has always been for old people and strangers.

[jackofallgeeks]

Holy fuck.
I think one of my friends just killed himself.

I haven't talked to him in a long while, 'cause I've been busy and stuff. Which sounds really stupid in the light of all of this, but... He hadn't seemed upset, y'know? Anyways, someone posted into his MySpace saying it was his friend Evan and that he'd killed himself today... And at first I thought it was some fucked up joke. But there's been another post saying the Funeral is Sunday and there've been comments left on his MySpace that are either sincere or really fucked up. And though his friends may have all been a little weird, they're good people.

God, I can't process this.

I may be out of town on Sunday.

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[8:48] - It's been verified.

Comments

[ofthelily.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately in situations like this, people usually don't talk to people about how miserable they are. *massive hugs* hang in there. I'll be thinking about you.

[readiness.livejournal.com]

this happened to me earlier this year *hug* surround yourself with family if you can

[tzohekiti.livejournal.com]

mew :-(

[surichan.livejournal.com]

I know I just got done seeing you, but everyone needs love in the virtual world as well. ::hugs:: Again, I'm so sorry. I'll be here for you as much as I possibly can.

[metis2be.livejournal.com]

I don't know if you remember this, but on the 4th, he called me, and I mentioned I was going to your house. He sounded glad to hear about you, and told me to say hello. I did, but it probably got lost in your memory from constant conversations.

He sounded really happy at the time.

See you sunday.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

I wish he hadn't done it. I really liked the guy. I'm a little angry at myself because I didn't call him when I got on this coast, but I'm angrier at him because he left without even saying good-bye. I'm not even sure what's appropriate to feel.

[mmeubiquitous.livejournal.com]

There is no such thing as an "appropriate" way to feel...you just lost a friend in probably the most difficult of ways. Anger, guilt, sadness, even nothing...it's all normal. Let yourself feel whatever you need to feel.

*hugs* I'm very sorry. Too often the people who go through with suicide are the ones who always seem happy, because they can't show people how much they hurt and ask for help. It's not your fault for not seeing it, and it isn't his fault for being essentially handicapped in that way. It's just very sad all round.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

-nods- I know.
I'm gonna miss him.