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[jackofallgeeks]

I've been thinking recently -- truthfully, I've been thinking for quite some time now, but notably so since our last conversation -- and for lack of a better word I'd like to date you. Because I think I'm better for you. Because my ambitions will never ask you to be anything but what you are. Because my pursuits are ever and always intellectual, spiritual and familial; they will never be political or career-based. Because we could at one time live near your family and mine, a thing which has recently come to concern me regarding most other girls. Because I really want nothing more than to love and raise a family, and as that goes I think you and I are in agreement on most things. Because I'm not a picky eater, and I like vegitables and Irish Dancing and music and art and culture. Because I've always wanted to go to Ireland for my honeymoon. Because you're pretty and Catholic and Irish, even if you don't have auburn hair. Because you know me as my friends know me, which even if it's an easy thing seems to not be a common thing.

The trouble is, though, the same as ever; as you said, I can't be sure until I try. I still can't offer you definites. We never did get around to trying, and now it seems that you have something that's pretty sure. So I can't really ask you to give up a "yes" in exchange for a "maybe," but perhaps if it weren't as "yes" as it seems... I'm not saying he's a bad guy, I don't even know him. I just think I'm better, is all.

I don't know if I'll ever get around to telling you this.

Comments

You're not Irish, are you?

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

-laughs- Trust me, you see the faults. Fault number one is that we played this dance in reverse and I hesitated. And you've proven before that you see into me better than I see into myself -- as most of my friends do. You don't need me to tell you my faults.

As for your faults? Well, for one, you can be really damn stubborn. For two, you're dating this other guy. For three, you have this way of not seeing the cliff at your feet because the view's so great. For four, try though you might, it seems you can be easily influenced by those you perceive to have authority over you, even if they're unaffiliated with the situation at hand. If you REALLY care to continue this I could, but I really don't like pointing out other's failings. I don't have you on a pedestal, if that's what you're looking to ascertain. Pedestals have never benefited me before, anyways.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Wow, I don't think you match a one of the criteria listed!  :p

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Nope, I'm not Irish, etc.

-smiles- Yes, well, we both knew that. it was still a useful comment to make, though. Not completely random: would you believe part of me doesn't want to have to deal with this? That there's a part of me that thinks it could be quite happy being alone for the foreseeable future? I think that part of me doesn't know what it's talking about, but still, it's there.

...doesn't saying that you're better than somebody you don't know, etc.

-laughs- Well, yes. But that's another one of my faults which is common knowledge to me if not to everyone else -- I can be particularly arrogant, and self-assured to a fault.