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[jackofallgeeks]

I had a dream last night. About Suzannah. In my dream, I confronted her about avoiding me, about how I'm the only one putting effort into maintaining any kind of friendship. For a moment, she'd given me a look that said I was being foolish, and for a moment I was ready to just storm off and be done with it. And then I pressed my point, that I didn't want to be 'done with it.' That I was putting effort in because I wanted to be friends. She jotted down a note and handed it to me, and I woke up before I could read it.

I've been Ok regarding this. In fact, I've been so busy, doing this or that, that I've hardly had time to think about it at all until this morning. This morning, I miss her. The worst part about all this, for me, is that it almost feels like a break-up, but we were never really dating.

Sometimes, as in my dream, I just don't care, I'm tired, and I just want to let it die. And that makes me really sad.

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[ambereternal.livejournal.com]

Did you ever stop by and see her as you were planning to? Or did those plans fall apart?

On an unrelated note, yes, we should do lunch next week. :-) Maybe thursday will be best...let me know if that works for you.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

No, every time, something else came up and I didn't have time to. I haven't called, emailed, or seen her since she said she didn't want to see the play. I'd like to get up there soonish with the direct intent to see her...

Thursday could work; I just got a job at Subway, and I don't know when they'll have me working. I go in on Sunday for training.