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Apr. 23rd, 2005 07:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksIt just hurts right now.
My heart aches, and I want nothing more than to curl up in bed and cry.
I miss her so very badly. And I don't know how to fix things. Because I really think that being like this got me where I am, being sad and scared and lonely, and so I'm afraid that admitting that I'm still sad and scared and lonely will just make things worse. I can't recover without talking about this, but I can't talk about this for fear of losing what little there is left. I don't want to be this way. I'm not this way; I'm self-assured, and confident, I'm a good man, a nice guy, a loyal and honest and loving friend. I can handle things. I can connect with people. People like me. I like me.
The most unattractive thing about you is the way you feel about [her].
She doesn't appreciate you.
I'm just sad and scared and lonely.
My heart aches, and I want nothing more than to curl up in bed and cry.
I miss her so very badly. And I don't know how to fix things. Because I really think that being like this got me where I am, being sad and scared and lonely, and so I'm afraid that admitting that I'm still sad and scared and lonely will just make things worse. I can't recover without talking about this, but I can't talk about this for fear of losing what little there is left. I don't want to be this way. I'm not this way; I'm self-assured, and confident, I'm a good man, a nice guy, a loyal and honest and loving friend. I can handle things. I can connect with people. People like me. I like me.
The most unattractive thing about you is the way you feel about [her].
She doesn't appreciate you.
I'm just sad and scared and lonely.
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Date: 2005-04-24 10:41 pm (UTC)*sigh*
I'm sorry, Andrew.