Cutain Call

[jackofallgeeks]

I want to take a break from our relationship. I say "relationship" because it isn't clear to me exactly how you stand with regard to me; I get the impression you aren't always completely sure yourself. Your fluctuating back and forth, trying to clarify your relationship with me, has become quite a mental burden for me. I do not need this stress.Talking about our relationship does not seem to help much. I think it would be best if we both just took a break from each other and got some fresh air. Clear the air. I am not angry with you, nor do I hate you, etc. You may email a response if you wish, but then I would ask you not to contact me, via email, phone. I need a break. Because I know you enjoy contra so much, I certainly don't want you to stay away on account of this. You have other friends here to enjoy. I hope you keep coming next semester and cultivate those friendships. Pray for me; I always pray for you.

No long speaches. I was afraid it might have come to this. I'm sorry if I upset you in anyway. Good luck with your papers, and finals. With any luck, I'll be in California next year. I hope to hear from you again, someday.

I ache. Emotionally, physically, mentally. Sometimes I should just keep my mouth shut. No one needs to deal with my bogeymen. Some things should just stay in my skull.

California's looking more welcoming. Hopefully I won't disappoint myself in that venture, too.

Maybe one day I'll be happy.
Maybe one day I won't be such a drama queen.

Comments

[raen.livejournal.com]

I feel for you completely, after all.. we're both on the same page hun. *hugs* Feel free to email me anytime you need to vent, ok? Also, anything I can do... just let me know.