Yet Unfinished
May. 30th, 2004 10:33 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksI lied when I posted This Post with a few thoughts about me. That is, I know what I was writing that that was to preface. Specvifically, it was a post on my thoughts, feelings and fears and pertain to Miss Suzannah.
Not too surprisingly, that I like Suzannah -- that I admire her the way I do -- is based greatly in who I am and who I want to be. She is firstly more devout than I am; maybe some out there would see that as a bad thing, but I recognized a long time ago that if I were to be the man I'd like to be, I would need a girl who would keep me in check and concious of myself.
I would also consider her something of my intellectual superior -- she's better read and, arguably, more conversant in the classics than I am. Of course, she IS a Classics Major (a segment of English Major), so that's only to be expected. But she knows things that I wish I did, and she's read books that I wish I had. Ideally, in knowing her, I would read those books and learn those things.
She's also more cultured, more inclined toward art and music, I think, and you can ask Claire -- I've always wanted to be more cultured. She has an air of dignity, and a self-respect... It adds to her beauty. And she in beautiful, with long dark hair, and beautiful dark eyes, fair skin and... I want to say "angular" facial features, as that's my prefered type (as opposed to round)... She has 'defined' cheakbones, whatever that's supposed to mean. And, *ahem* proportions that apeal to my tastes... A slight girl, small but healthy, not a stick like some girls.
I'm sure I could go on and on, but...
There's more. Mostly about how I have nothing to offer her myself, and how I'd be devotedly hers if she'd let me be... But that's standard for ladies, it seems... I donno...
Not too surprisingly, that I like Suzannah -- that I admire her the way I do -- is based greatly in who I am and who I want to be. She is firstly more devout than I am; maybe some out there would see that as a bad thing, but I recognized a long time ago that if I were to be the man I'd like to be, I would need a girl who would keep me in check and concious of myself.
I would also consider her something of my intellectual superior -- she's better read and, arguably, more conversant in the classics than I am. Of course, she IS a Classics Major (a segment of English Major), so that's only to be expected. But she knows things that I wish I did, and she's read books that I wish I had. Ideally, in knowing her, I would read those books and learn those things.
She's also more cultured, more inclined toward art and music, I think, and you can ask Claire -- I've always wanted to be more cultured. She has an air of dignity, and a self-respect... It adds to her beauty. And she in beautiful, with long dark hair, and beautiful dark eyes, fair skin and... I want to say "angular" facial features, as that's my prefered type (as opposed to round)... She has 'defined' cheakbones, whatever that's supposed to mean. And, *ahem* proportions that apeal to my tastes... A slight girl, small but healthy, not a stick like some girls.
I'm sure I could go on and on, but...
There's more. Mostly about how I have nothing to offer her myself, and how I'd be devotedly hers if she'd let me be... But that's standard for ladies, it seems... I donno...
