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jackofallgeeksI'm a major stress-ball right now. Just checked my mid-term grades. I have an A in CopmpSci (surprise surprise), a B- in English (more here in a second), and a C in Calculus (><*) - CAE Tools and Physics don't have grades up yet. That roughly gives me a B average. That's not bad, but I need to hold a B averege to keep my scholarships. >_<;; I never get worried about my grades, but what ticks me off is I know what I'm doing - I SHOULD have better grades. And if I'm bombing either CAE or Pysics....... O.o I'm going to try to get on track and really crack down on my school work after break. That means less computer time, and it'll take a push. ><* Hopefully I can do it.
As for English, that's not helping anything. My teacher doesn't seem to care if I pass or fail, regardless of if he said I was a good writer. He's mechanical - you do it by the book or you don't even bother. He locks the door at the start of class, and implies that if you're going to be 5min late, you might as well not come at all. Our research paper's due the day we get back from Spring Break. I keep missing his class because I oversleep, and like I said, he's not a very 'forgiving' man. And aside from that, if you have 5 absences, you lose a 1/2 letter grade, and if you miss 7, you fail. Period. And so his class just stresses me.
Two good notes. Tomarrow i'm going to have dinner over at GMU with my old friend, Jackie. ^_^ It's going to be good to see her. And I'll ger real food! It almost makes me want to get up tomarrow morning...
Second, I talked with my Lil friend, Em (due to confusion with my other friend, Emily, I'll refer to Em as such - this isn't the girl who you've heard so much about). Em's a lil girl I met back when we started homeschooling. I met her in band. She played Clarenet....weird....
In anycase, she's a relatively good friend, and she's very cute (only 3yrs younger than me, so she's in range, too. ^_^). The first thing she'd asked me was if I'd had any dates here at school. ^_^;;
I feel like such a loser - right now more than anything - sleep, food, money - I just want to hold someone. ><* Not *anyone*, mind you, but just to hold someone - what a grand release it would be just to be able to touch someone, y'know? Uhm, not, mind you, that I've been thinking about this in reference to Em. Or Lauren. Or Katie. Or Rose. Or.....
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I've decided (after reading a bit of Beth's post) that I'm going to try and get on track, do my work when it's assigned, and stop settling for grades I know I can improve. i fear i've generally become content with my life as it is, and that can be deadly. ><;;
I pray this motivation lasts.
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I just IMed Becky (Emily's sister) with a simple request:
Andrew: Good Evening.
Andrew: I'm sure you ladies can't talk tonight
Andrew: But I would just like to ask a favor
Becky: shoot
Andrew: Just that you guys be praying for me is all. I'm rather stressed, and could use all the help I can get.
Becky: will do
Andrew: ^_^ thank you, Becky. I appreciate it.
Andrew: Have a nice night.
Becky: you too :-)
It was good just to hear from her, and you know, have my IM recognized when so often it seems the Twins simply ignore me. it's nice knowing you have friends, yes?
As for English, that's not helping anything. My teacher doesn't seem to care if I pass or fail, regardless of if he said I was a good writer. He's mechanical - you do it by the book or you don't even bother. He locks the door at the start of class, and implies that if you're going to be 5min late, you might as well not come at all. Our research paper's due the day we get back from Spring Break. I keep missing his class because I oversleep, and like I said, he's not a very 'forgiving' man. And aside from that, if you have 5 absences, you lose a 1/2 letter grade, and if you miss 7, you fail. Period. And so his class just stresses me.
Two good notes. Tomarrow i'm going to have dinner over at GMU with my old friend, Jackie. ^_^ It's going to be good to see her. And I'll ger real food! It almost makes me want to get up tomarrow morning...
Second, I talked with my Lil friend, Em (due to confusion with my other friend, Emily, I'll refer to Em as such - this isn't the girl who you've heard so much about). Em's a lil girl I met back when we started homeschooling. I met her in band. She played Clarenet....weird....
In anycase, she's a relatively good friend, and she's very cute (only 3yrs younger than me, so she's in range, too. ^_^). The first thing she'd asked me was if I'd had any dates here at school. ^_^;;
I feel like such a loser - right now more than anything - sleep, food, money - I just want to hold someone. ><* Not *anyone*, mind you, but just to hold someone - what a grand release it would be just to be able to touch someone, y'know? Uhm, not, mind you, that I've been thinking about this in reference to Em. Or Lauren. Or Katie. Or Rose. Or.....
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I've decided (after reading a bit of Beth's post) that I'm going to try and get on track, do my work when it's assigned, and stop settling for grades I know I can improve. i fear i've generally become content with my life as it is, and that can be deadly. ><;;
I pray this motivation lasts.
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I just IMed Becky (Emily's sister) with a simple request:
Andrew: Good Evening.
Andrew: I'm sure you ladies can't talk tonight
Andrew: But I would just like to ask a favor
Becky: shoot
Andrew: Just that you guys be praying for me is all. I'm rather stressed, and could use all the help I can get.
Becky: will do
Andrew: ^_^ thank you, Becky. I appreciate it.
Andrew: Have a nice night.
Becky: you too :-)
It was good just to hear from her, and you know, have my IM recognized when so often it seems the Twins simply ignore me. it's nice knowing you have friends, yes?
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::does a little cheer for Andrew:: Goooooo Andreeeeeew! ^_~
Date: 2002-02-19 07:44 pm (UTC)it goes la la la la la, it goes around the world just la la la la la..
Once I scrounge up enough for postage....
Date: 2002-02-19 09:55 pm (UTC)But, in anycase - Go Mel! You can do-eet!
Uhm...what am I motivating you to do, again?
it's never too late to get it back...
Uhm... anything. Everything. Motivation to not run away from everyone in my life ... motivation to maybe stick with this version of my life until something can change? I'm so unmotivated on every level. It's pathetic.
Speaking of postage. I owe you a CD. What a meanie I am for not having it to you ages ago. I need to get my sorry behind into gear, don't I? ^__^;;;;;;;
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Date: 2002-02-20 05:43 am (UTC)^_^ Ah, don't worry about it, Mel - if I was really interested in having the CD now I could go out and pay the $45 myself. ^^ you can get it to me whenever's convenient, I don't mind.