Suffer in Silence

[jackofallgeeks]

Feeling frustrated and unmotivated.

Can't make myself get back into working on my story, though I have a number ideas of ways to make it better.

I just want this school year to be done with, but I don't know what I'd do with myself if it was.

The job I had an interview for wrote me back.
I didn't get the job, but they're passing my resume off to a programming contact they have here in DC...

I want to see things with Suzannah work out, but at the same time it feels really futile...

Everything seems futile and stale right now.
I just, I donno, want to curl up in bed and ignore the world for a while.

I hate feeling like this.
I want to talk with someone about it all, but I don't like showing myself this way.
And I don't want them to just tell me the same "it'll be OK, you'll do fine, everything will turn out alright."
I 'know' that, I just want to talk, and have a meaningful conversation with someone...

I like it cold and wet, but I don't like snow. I'm difficult to please.

Comments

[metis2be.livejournal.com]

Ok, well i won't tell you that it'll all be ok, i will tell you that i know how you feel. I get like that all the time. Far too often, actually. The problem with it is once you feel down, you tend to wallow, you don't feel like taking the effort to feel better. Pretty much the only way i can ever get out of those moods is music. You know those songs that are just so great that no matter how many times you've listened to them, they still can completely effect you? I tend to like ATC-It's a Fine Day, or It Don't Mean a Thing, since it's almost impossible to be sad with good techno or big band music. ::coughSwingKidscough::

Also, i completely understand the cold anti-snow thing. Coldness makes you feel better, it's brisk and refreshing, and helps whenever you start feeling sick. On the other hand, snow sucks, because unless you have some great friends, there's nothing you can do with it, and it makes walking irritatingly slow and tedious.