I think I'm having a Mid-College Crisis.

[jackofallgeeks]

I don't know what I want to do. I'm pretty sure I like WHAT I'm doing, but not how I'm doing it. Or, perhapse, who I'm doing it with... I think the Computer major here leaves alot to be desired... Though, I was looking at Steubenville's courses and saw references to COBOL and FORTRAN. For the "computer impaired" among my friends, that's about on par to studying Old English or Latin -- edifying academically, but all but completely impractical. So, I don't know. My dad actually talked with my cousin Diana this weekend, and she said she was going to pass me the contact info for a CS guy there... So, that would help me get a better idea of what they're doing out there...

I can program well, any of my jobs will tell you that. I get the concepts, and what I don't know outright, I learn readily. How difficult is it for an English Major to get a Programming job...? I do want to write...

I can't decide if I'm happy or unhappy. A couple days talking with my friends and 'm great, but the same amount of time Iany measure of distance away from them, and i start to feel really alone. It's almost a weekly Cycle -- On Wednesday, I'm sure I'll stick it out here at CUA and be happy. By Sunday Night, I want nothing more than to get out of here -- just to GO somewhere different. It's a physical effort for me to not just hop in my car and drive somewhere.

Do you ever find yourself feeling like you're just killing time between weekends?

I want someone to adore.

Comments

[cohagen.livejournal.com]

Nobody has it ALL figured out. You're not in that boat alone. I'm sure you'll be fine.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Oh, I have no delusions that I should know everything about what I want to do and all that -- I'm sure I don't know, and i'm sure that doesn't bother me so much. It's more that I can't decide if I wast to change where I am or what I'm doing that's the problem.

[violetmay.livejournal.com]

"Do you ever find yourself feeling like you're just killing time between weekends?"

darling, i feel like i'm just killing time between lifes... -nuzzle- take heart, we can kill time together.