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jackofallgeeksI'm trying to get my Journal back to the ideal that it started with. That is to say, I fear I've been locking far too many of my posts. I have noticed a trend, though -- several months after the fact, I usually go back and unlock everything, anyways. It's easier, safer, after I've been removed from the situation. Arguably, anyone who cared to could start at the beginning of my journal and read a good year or so worth of posts without missing much of anything. Y'know, if anyone ever cared to.
The thing is, most of the posts I've been locking have been Tier-Two (I have a number of security groups I just recently set up, to make it easier to manage who can see sensitive posts), and most of my regular readers (well, those I ASSUME to be my regular readers) are Tier-Two level, anyways. This being the case, I have to recognize two things: Firstly, that there's only a handful of people I really care to lock out of posts, and odds are they wouldn't stumble onto this page if I pointed them to it. That and, it doesn't matter. Really, it doesn't. I've at least always claimed that I don't care what people think of me, so long as it IS ME -- that is, if they know who I am and what I stand for, let them not like me. I don't try to base the person I am on what others think of me. And being that the purpose of this journal is first and foremost meant to lay bare that very person (followed very closely by keeping me tied to my friends, and therefore grounded), well, there you go. Or something. Wow that got convoluted... But that's not the point.
In the end, though, it is so very frightening to leave oneself so open and vulnerable.
In the end, we all wear masks. If you'll allow me to be, momentarily, melodramatic, it's interesting to note whether these masks are to protect us from the world, or rather to protect us from ourselves.
OK, enough of that.
The thing is, most of the posts I've been locking have been Tier-Two (I have a number of security groups I just recently set up, to make it easier to manage who can see sensitive posts), and most of my regular readers (well, those I ASSUME to be my regular readers) are Tier-Two level, anyways. This being the case, I have to recognize two things: Firstly, that there's only a handful of people I really care to lock out of posts, and odds are they wouldn't stumble onto this page if I pointed them to it. That and, it doesn't matter. Really, it doesn't. I've at least always claimed that I don't care what people think of me, so long as it IS ME -- that is, if they know who I am and what I stand for, let them not like me. I don't try to base the person I am on what others think of me. And being that the purpose of this journal is first and foremost meant to lay bare that very person (followed very closely by keeping me tied to my friends, and therefore grounded), well, there you go. Or something. Wow that got convoluted... But that's not the point.
In the end, though, it is so very frightening to leave oneself so open and vulnerable.
In the end, we all wear masks. If you'll allow me to be, momentarily, melodramatic, it's interesting to note whether these masks are to protect us from the world, or rather to protect us from ourselves.
OK, enough of that.
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Date: 2003-07-22 06:22 am (UTC)