So this morning I find myself overcome with dysphoria. It started building after Liz's wedding, I guess, and relented a little while I was babysitting my sister's kids, but this morning I just feel defeated. Like I'll never accomplish anything; I won't be able to write my novel, I'll struggle in my graduate studies, I'll only ever be a mediocre employee working at a job I can tolerate, I'll never find a girl or get married or have a family.
The weekend itself was good, though, really.
( The Trip )
( The Wedding )
( The Kids )
Driving home last night, the Bridge I needed to cross was closed for upwards of 30 minutes. And this morning I had to backtrack and take the long way into work because the tunnel into Portsmouth was closed. And I'm feeling a bit better now, but still rather depressed. Roughly two hours before I take my lunch, and then another four hours before I can go home. And I have to tell Jeff that I won't be in town this weekend, again, and we'll have to get together some other time. Which sucks, but I'd forgotten that this weekend i'm going to the Navy game with dad, and I can't call out of that. Even if I convinced myself that I have things I need to take care of down here, backing out on seeing my family would make me really depressed.
The weekend itself was good, though, really.
( The Trip )
( The Wedding )
( The Kids )
Driving home last night, the Bridge I needed to cross was closed for upwards of 30 minutes. And this morning I had to backtrack and take the long way into work because the tunnel into Portsmouth was closed. And I'm feeling a bit better now, but still rather depressed. Roughly two hours before I take my lunch, and then another four hours before I can go home. And I have to tell Jeff that I won't be in town this weekend, again, and we'll have to get together some other time. Which sucks, but I'd forgotten that this weekend i'm going to the Navy game with dad, and I can't call out of that. Even if I convinced myself that I have things I need to take care of down here, backing out on seeing my family would make me really depressed.