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I hurt.
I don't understand why these girls ignore me.
I don't understand why they don't even give me a chance.
I don't ask for much, just to love and be loved, and they haven't even stayed around long enough for me to ask that.

I'm still kicking myself about Meghan, and you can sit there and tell me that she was wrong for me, but you've never known her. There's more to her than the "you can't have famale friends" bit, and there's more to *that* than you know. She's seeing someone else now, and still my friend, so she can't have meant what it seems she said. And even at that, I'd rather err on the side of "Too Catholic" or "Too Traditional" or "Too Conservative" than the alternative ("Not Catholic Enough," et cetera).

And maybe there's something to what everyone else says; my grandparents recently said that Suzannah was "too serious" for me, and maybe they're right. They didn't know her, but people seem to know me better than I do.

It's frustrating to find a girl who's so much what I'm looking for, but who isn't interested in me. And it's just as frustrating (though marginally easier to deal with) to find a girl who's interested in me, but really isn't anything that I'm looking for.

I'm just lonely.

Not from the makers of that 'Hang in There' poster with the cat.

My brother just pointed me toward a site that has poignant words on such topics as Adversity, Arrogance, Compromise, Conformity, Doubt, Individuality, and Worth.

I also liked the bits on Beauty, Dysfunction, Irresponsibility, Madness, and Sacrifice.

I need to get some of these. I think some of them have a dark sort of beauty.

I wish This One had a better caption.