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Apr. 10th, 2003 10:03 am"The king of all things was... ThingKing..."
Like I was telling a friend the other day, change is good. Life is change; without change there is no life. I'm a very relationship-oriented person, and it holds that when a relationship falls into stasis, it dies...
"Did I tell you about Sammy Jenkins? Only everytime I see you. Don't worry, the story gets better everytime you tell it."
Sometimes I feel like I just keep saying the same things over and over... And though it's not a matter of never getting over it, it seems the same things just swing back and hit me everytime. The best advice I've gotten recently, and from several sources, is not to force things. Change doesn't happen over night. So then, how long will it take me to finally be able to not force things?
I'm afraid of losing friends. Always have been, and I think I always will be. I can think of a great number of friends I used to have, and a handful who have recently slipped off... and perhapse, even a number who are falling away even now. We're just growing apart. That doesn't make it any easier. I don't like losing friends.
I feel not-quite-empty this morning, and I can't say why. I think, maybe, I've fallen into a stasis. I don't know... maybe I should just go get something to eat...
I wonder, sometimes, if maybe I should just pretend like nothing's bothering me... Maybe it would make things easier on my friends or something. I used to play that game, long before most of you met me. I didn't like it then, and I wouldn't like it now. But I wonder, sometimes...
Like I was telling a friend the other day, change is good. Life is change; without change there is no life. I'm a very relationship-oriented person, and it holds that when a relationship falls into stasis, it dies...
"Did I tell you about Sammy Jenkins? Only everytime I see you. Don't worry, the story gets better everytime you tell it."
Sometimes I feel like I just keep saying the same things over and over... And though it's not a matter of never getting over it, it seems the same things just swing back and hit me everytime. The best advice I've gotten recently, and from several sources, is not to force things. Change doesn't happen over night. So then, how long will it take me to finally be able to not force things?
I'm afraid of losing friends. Always have been, and I think I always will be. I can think of a great number of friends I used to have, and a handful who have recently slipped off... and perhapse, even a number who are falling away even now. We're just growing apart. That doesn't make it any easier. I don't like losing friends.
I feel not-quite-empty this morning, and I can't say why. I think, maybe, I've fallen into a stasis. I don't know... maybe I should just go get something to eat...
I wonder, sometimes, if maybe I should just pretend like nothing's bothering me... Maybe it would make things easier on my friends or something. I used to play that game, long before most of you met me. I didn't like it then, and I wouldn't like it now. But I wonder, sometimes...
