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OK, I fixed the link -- uhm, if you've already taken this with the OTHER link, I would ask that you take it again under your name, and please choose the same answers. i'm interested in comparing resuilts, so it'd mean alot to me. Thanks.
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Tonight's kinda sucked. Well, kinda.  >_<  I feel like such a waste of space.

Today in general was a waste, generally. I slept through my class, called out of work... I didn't get up till 1:30. I did manage to get some stuff accomplished. I worked on a paper I have due, and called in to a guy who Dad thinks can help me out with my ONI internship. I also got things picked up, and would have done laundry if not for the fact that there were no open washers.

I talked with Meredith this afternoon, and she made me unreasonably happy. I love her. See, she's asked me to be her Confirmation sponser, which means ALOT to me as it is. But she's also a really sweet girl, and I really like her. Apparently she didn't have any pics of me, so I sent her some. I still need one of my new glasses. But it was fun, and I was grinning as much as when Mel said I was cute or Amanda said she'd kiss me.  ^_^;;  I'm easy to please.

I also chatted with Amanda, which was cool, but it looks as though we prolly won't be getting t'gether on the 22nd. -sigh- No, i'm not disappointed... But on the plus side, it means I'll be able to get up to Ohio for Meredith's Confirmation, and that means seeing all the Mock girls, if only for a day or two.
Lord, but I wish I had someone to love...

Things went down after Amanda got offline. I'd just finished myaking my quiz, and my brain was totally fried. It should not be so fucking hard to make a simple quiz. I haven't really been able to think since, and it's getting on my nerves, putting me on edge. -deep breath- It feels like everything's going to fall in around me, and I'm going to end up in another hole.

I was going to write today, too. I even had inspiration, and I knew how I was going to do it. But my brain crashed, and now it isn't coming. I even messed up a fucking hyperlink! The hell!? Yeah, yeah, it wasn't my fault, but if I'd simply read the URL I'd have been able to figure it out... And I've noticed I've fallen to profanity more often than I'd like as of late. I shouldn't be this angry.

-deep breath- I know I have friends out there. I know, somewhere, there's people who get me. Who know where I'm coming from. People who know me almost as well as I know me -- maybe better. But they're not here. Due to know fault of their own, they're never around when I need them. And I feel so alone, sometimes...

I just... I need a friend... I think amanda was onto something when she said I need a friend with benefits. I don't need a serious relationship right now -- I want one, Lord knows I just want to find someone to love and start a family with. But I NEED a good friend. I need someone I can just go to, for comfort and support. Someone who gets me, someone Im not afraid to talk to, and someone who'll be there.

I don't have anyone here...

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Yeah... I'll write tomorrow. I hope.
Night.

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"I know you didn't bring me out here to drown./ So why am I ten feet under and upside-down?"

Things are just never simple, are they?
I shouldn't have asked. I should have just let things be.

My TA for Religion seems like the sort of guy I want to be - knowlegable about his faith and willing to talk about it. I respect that, alot. So, of course, the Stupid side of me asked what he knew about Catholic-Protestant marriages. Yeah, we see where that's going. According to him, it's a 'sacramental' marriage as opposed to a 'natural' marriage, usually needs a dispensation. The Catholic must promise to raise the children Catholic to the best of their ability and the Protestant is made aware of the promise. The marriage can't takr place in the context of a mass because the protestant can't recieve the Eucharist (due to the fact that they don't believe it's truely Christ prersent in the same way we do).
Everything is still valid.

So, yeah, this would almost seem to dig up an old conflict in me, and it does, but not the one you'd think. Even with all this being said, I don't think she'd take me back. She doesn't need me. It's over. I'm just a fool who, try as he might, can't move on.