Nov. 16th, 2002

jackofallgeeks: (Goofy)
Oh, Wait...

Well, today was the day of the Infamous Programming Competition. What's that, you say? You've never heard of it? Well, that's probably just because I didn't know about it until a week ago.
In an attept to make a long story short(er), I'm part of the ACM computer club here at school, and apparently, we had three guys (Joe, D, and Mike) going to this competion at George Washington. But Mike suddenly pulled out at the last minute, and when I Joe asked if I'd fill, I (being the masochist I am) said 'sure' in that echo-y "Jim Infantino's 'Acid'" kinda way.

We spent the next week trying to have a meeting with us all together (I later learned that Joe and D spent that same week trying to dodge those same meetings) and we finally touched base for a span of fifteen minutes on Friday. Most all of what we decided was just that we'd meet at the Metro at 7:00. Later that evening, an e-mail changed it to meeting Dave at Hannan at 7, and he'd drive us. Sure, whatever.

This morning I got up at 6:30, dressed and all, and headed out into the rain towards Hannan, where I met Joe, and then D. At about 7:15, we decided Dave wasn't comming, and trudged out to the Metro - only to find it wasn't open until 8:00 (and we were supposed to be at GW at 8). So Joe goes and gets HIS car - only to be met by Dave, some 30minutes late. Feel the joy, yes?

Anyways, we go, have a mostly uneventful but quite humorous trip to GW, park, and go inside. We get some of the danish and juice provided for our breakfast and register, and then we're told that they were extending the schedual to give us more time to eat because someone had only ordered half the food we needed. Of course, the additional food never arrived, but we had more time to eat what wasn't there. Again, in an attempt to shorten the story, we were suposed to get started on the competition at noon. But delay after delay kept popping up, and we didn't get going until 2:00!

In general, the competition was actually pretty cool. Joe, D, and I were getting through the problems and comming up with solutions, but we were having a fun time doing it - unlike the Code-Nazi who was next to us. I came up with a number of ideas to solve a few of the problems, but since I didn't know enough specifics and Joe and D don't like Arrays or Recusion all that much, they weren't implemented. I still think, in theory, they would've worked nicely.

We didn't get anywhere near placing, but they gave us Pizza for dinner, and we had a fun time between ourselves, as well as talking with a few of the other teams - infact, the Code-Nazi was a pretty cool guy when he wasn't in Competition-Mode. There was also a cute brunette girl there who I think I've seen before, though I can't place where or why. I didn't say anything, either, cause D and Joe aren't exactly prime examples on how to treat a lady - and the less they took note of her, the better I thought it was. Nothing against them, of course, just thought I might space her, s'all.

The worst part though was comming back. >_< Dave is a lucky man I didn't hurl all over his car. It's not that I just filled up on pizza and carrots and then left, either - we sat and talked for quite some time, but his driving compared with the temperature... First off, he was driving stick, and while I admire him for that (being as I can't drive stick myself) he was REALLY jerky with it - not so much with shifting as with breaking and turning - he was very jolty and swerved alot. And the HEAT! He must have had it at LEAST 85 degrees in there, if not warmer. He's surprised all his window's were fogging? I was dying - I don't like being warm (I would much rather be chilled) and it's the worst thing to inflict on me when I'm feeling sick.
I made it back fine, though, and thanked God for the cool, open, wet air that met me when I got out of that car. ^__^

Seeing as there's no one on, and I'm rather beat from the day's events, I'm trying to fool myself into thinking I'm going to lay down and take a rest for a couple hours. Failing that (or afterwards, depending) I'm going to see if I can't get some more work on my paper done. I still can't think of an opening for it, but I'm hoping by the end the rest of the paper's written something will occure to me.

Twilight

Nov. 16th, 2002 09:13 pm
jackofallgeeks: (Literary)
The darkness moved.
He still couldn't see anything in the gloomy expanses of the cave, but he felt the motion. There was something out there.

He could not remember how he got where he was. Everywhere he looked was the same gray-blue flatness. He couldn't see his one hand infront of his face, but he could feel the tattered rags they had left him with, hanging limply from his body.

A low sound, like the rumble of stone against stone, reverberated from all sides at once. There for a moment, then gone.

He eased his claws slowly in and out of their sheathes. He remembered bits - they had left him with more than rags. They had left him bruises and cuts as well. He had fought hard, and their scales split easily beneath his claws, but he had been out-numbered. He couldn't recall anything about the whys or hows. Everything was hazy.

There was a sudden, deafening silence -
he couldn't even hear his own breathing.

The darkness moved. And there was no escape.

Night

Nov. 16th, 2002 09:54 pm
jackofallgeeks: (Dark)
It gets the worst at times like these.
I crawl into bed, my body praising me for the relief.
I pull the comforter up around me,
and put my arm around my blanket - the soft, fuzzy blue one
mom got me last year - and imagine she's next to me.

There's nothing better to do on a rainy day thean cuddle with someone you love.
Nothing.

Of course, when I say 'she' I refer to her, but it doesn't have to be anyone in particular.
Just someone who would let me.

::Shakes head:: That's such a big thing for me, I don't know if I can even explain. I mean, it's easy to love someone - I feel a great deal of the time that I'm just bursting with affection waiting for an outlet. Maybe that's what girls recognize that makes them say 'oh, he's such a sweet guy.' I'm just waiting for someone to accept my affection. I just want someone to love.

Looking back, that's one of the strongest argument's for Claire. The night we met, she and I ended up on a couch in the lobby, and she let me put my arms around her, and burry my head in her shoulder, and she stroked my head... She allowed me to be affectionate. Even now, it's my deepest need - to be affectionate. And over the weekend, she let me. It was different, at times, when I didn't quite feel affection from her, but affection comming back truely only makes it sweeter - I was more than content that she would let me hold her hand and put my arms around her.

I can't say that my life has been void of affection - I would have no argument. I come from a very open, loving family (though I would contest quitew a number of those here may well know me better than my family does, that's a different subject). The problem, I think, is having that outlet for physical affection. And I can't say it's completely selfless - just as I couldn't cuddle with my sister for as weird it would be, there ARE girls I know who I couldn't cuddle with for similar reasons. And even those who I would feel comfortable with, there's that whole 'taboo' stage of not knowing what's acceptable. My biggest gripe with friendships these days is that people don't TOUCH enough. No one hugs, no one cuddles - it's innocent stuff, people, but it's all relegated to 'meaningful' relationships.

It's rather sickening, how society kills affection and promotes raw sex. It's killing us, if you think about it. It leads to meaningless relationships (even among friends, because you're not 'allowed' to offer the support I dare say we all need) and even MORE meaningless sex, because it becomes so selfish, so much 'I need to feel better' sex, sex only because it feels good.

I don't want that. I don't want to fall to that level. It's an alluring lie, the idea that sex will make things better. But it won't. It'll just open up a whoile package of things that i don't need to deal with - ever. Yet, much as I know it isn't what I want... You know?
Don't get me wrong, please. I like being a virgin, and I have every intention of remaining so until I'm married - because then I'm sure it will mean something.
>_< Not that I really have any choice in the matter, though...
jackofallgeeks: (Contemplative)
My roommate is now on LJ.
I'll refrain from pointing him out for fear that some here would harass him. Not that you don't have a right to, nessisarily, I would just rather discourage it.

I swear, though, if he harasses me, I'll slay the bastard. Don't get me wrong, he can be a really decent guy,
but I'm taking quite a risk here, just by letting him know where my journal is.

You guys I can trust - even the random journals who I've decided to Lurk on I can trust. I'm afraid that giving him access to my inner thoughts could be like allowing the Neevil into Narnia. I'm very open here, as I should hope you've noticed. I'm lucky there have been no hostile forces yet come.

I'm debating whether I should really list him as a Friend. That opens up even more, and would require a bit more thought.


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