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*Crawls Into A Hole*
Feb. 15th, 2002 01:29 pmToday has thus far generally sucked.
After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.
At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.
This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.
I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.
Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.
After English, me and Nina were talking and she (half-jokingly?) said she'd always had a low opinon of me. We're friends and all, and we kept talking after than note, but it still does hurt some.
At lunch I wanted to put my head on Lauren's shoulder. I was tried, and think, and lord knows I've been lonely this month...but, of course, you can't just cuddle with your friends. It looks weird, people think things.
This morning I decided I didn't want to go to Tennly tonight with Jack - I'm just not up for it. A guy's got a right to not want to go out, dam it. When I told Jack, he was a bit upset, and tried to convince me to go. When I refused, he kinda laughed and made a remark about how I'm always complaining that I need to get out more. I said that stung and he said, "No, you want to know what stings....?" Then, as we parted ways, he said "Have a miserable day." Jack never says anything mean. Ever. Where I would cuss at someone, Jack's the type who says "God Bless you." He wants to be a priest, and he's a really nice guy. But today he was full of venom. I feel really miserable.
I'm mad, but I donno if I'm mad at him, or me.
Or both.
Work in 1/2 an hour. That's going to suck.
