An Exercise In Futility

Hmmmm, how does one begin?

I have this friend, one could say, and while I'm not particularly frustrated with them....or maybe I am....For simplicity and anonymity, we'll call said friend "Ben" You see, Ben has a friend, Jerry. Ben and Jerry have known each other for a while - longer than I've known either of them, particularly.

But since they've come to college, the two have changed, it seems. Ben says that Jerry isn't the guy he used to be - he does stupid stuff, hangs out with the wrong people - you know, drinks, messes around with women - heaven forbid he does anything worse, but that seems to be the way he's headed.

Anyways, Ben feels bad because he often feels he just wants their friendship to end - and understandably so. He just doesn't know Jerry anymore. But at the same time, I don't think he can do that, and I told him so. I told Ben that instead of ignore the issues for fear of a confrontation, it's his obligation as a friend to tell Jerry that he's skrewing up.

Sadly though, Ben is deathly afraid of confrontations. It's been said that I have more of a backbone than I admit to, and I simply can't understand Ben on this point. He says he sees it as a test - but a test of what I don't know.

It almost seems to me that Ben just wants to ignore the whole situation and wait for the relationship to wane. But I KNOW you can't do that - I've tried before. All you end up with is awkwardness, especially so when one side doesn't KNOW there's a problem. And it frustrates me that Ben won't see this, cause he's a really good friend of mine. And the way he's handling it, he's just going to end up regretting it. With a confrontation, yes, there MAY be hard feelings, but not only, and it's better than ambiguity. Often even when there's hard feeling the people involved can come to an understanding, even remain friends. You can't just starve a relationship and hope it goes away.

But, Ben won't listen to me. I would talk with Jerry, except me and him have never really been close, and it doesn't SPECIFICALLY involve me anyways. Even if I could get them to talk, I'm afraid I'd earn animosity from both sides if I interfered against their wishes, you know?

Anyways, that's that, I guess...

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You know, it never fails.

Just when you think you have it all set - you're Ghost is Cloaked and merily strolling down the Complex hallway, Casister Rifle in hand, and you're THIS CLOSE to rescuing Zeratul and his fellow Dark Templar - that's when it happens. That's when a Raging Swarm of Zerglings comes charging by your happy-go-lucky Ghost and into the waiting Arms of Tassadar, lovingly biting his Protoss face off and proceeding to rip him into so many psi-imbued ribbons. After that, it's all over.

This never would have happened if it wasn't for Arcturus. He gave the Zerg exactly what they wanted - a Ghost to play with. that's what they were after, anyways, wasn't it. Look at the facts - why else would the Zerg be attracted to the psi-emiters? Because it radiated the brain-waves of a Ghost. They wanted a Psionic Human - that's why they came to the Terran Dominion in the first place - and Arcturus (the bastard) HANDED her to them.

He didn't need her down there. I'm sure it was just an insidious plot to get the upstart Kerrigan out of the way. It started when Arcturus used the Zerg as a weapon oin the Confederates, and Kerrigan didn't like it. Then it was used again, and she spoke against Arcturus. He quickly dropped her down to guard the beasts he'd unleshed on other humans, and when the Zerg over ran her, he LEFT her! She was calling for help, swarmed by the Borg-like Zerg, and he left. The bastard.

Of course they assimilated her. It's what the Zerg do. They're almost a noble race, really - created and 'programmed' to be perfect, their hive conciousness comanded by the god-like Overmind. Kerrigan would be his greatest creation. She mutated in her crysalis, and sometimes I wonder how much of her changed in there, and how much changed when Arcturus left her as dead. That would push anyone pretty far.

She called out, then, for vengence. Through the depths of space she called psionically to Jim Raynor, and Arcturus. I often wonder why she called Jim, and then let him go... In any case, the Protoss heard. And the Dark Templar came. They came and they attacked the Overmind's Cerebrated, with a force that destroyed them beyond reincarnation. That's why they were hunted. That's why Tassadar is searching for Zeratul in the complex on Char. All because Arcturus betrayed Kerrigan to the Zerg.

In the end though, Kerrigan is no one's tool, not even the Overmind's. He left her with her fiery will and determination, as an 'example to the swarm', but I am certain she orchestrated the Overmind's demise. Early on she named herself Queen of Blades, and it is, after all, she who called the Dark Templar to the Zerg in the first place. She plays all three sides against eachother, and it remains to be seen what she does as the new, immature Overmind grows. Only time will tell....

A Friend In Need's A Friend Indeed....

I like my friends.

I'm inparticularly refering to my friends here at College who, sadly, I rarely get to see. But today I saw two of them - Becky and Meg, and I guess you could count Raul (Meg's boyfriend) as one, as well.

In anycase, it's the first time I'd seen any of then since friday, and there was one subject - Claire. ^_^ Becky asked if we were 'you know', and I said no, I don't like the whole 'going out' thing. LOL And SHE said 'you should be!' She said Claire was so pretty, and nice, and everything that I already knew anyways. so I said 'now you're telling me who I should go out with? My mom doesn't even do that!' It was fun. ^_^

Meg asked a similar question, and then told me that Brooklyn (who I think introduced herself to Claire as 'Michelle' though I doubt she heard) had a, quote, 'really cute picture' of me and Claire. I love Meg - she's the awsomest. ^_^

Me and Meg also got to talking about Christmas stuff, and I got her address, and she pointed out 'Timberview' and told Raul she did live in a place with trees. And I said 'They have trees in Florida?' ^_^ She got 'upset' and Raul said 'Remember what you said about my home - you have four powerlines, what?' And I said 'You have four powerlines? That's two more than I thought.' Then I told them that it's OK - SOME of us don't have hometowns, and we got to talking about moving and such, since I'm a Navybrat. Finally we camee back around, and Raul said 'We don't live in wood shacks' and I said 'Oh, I didn't think that' and Meg finished off my thought with 'yeah, I thought you lived in mud huts.' ^_^

I love my friends.

Life Without Music Is A Mistake

I love music. In particular, I like this song - 'Last Beautiful Girl' by Matchbox Twenty. One may ask why. One may also find the song themselves, and they'll know why, I'm certain.

There are many, many songs I like.

'Creep' by Radiohead.
'Somebody' by Veruka Salt.
'Worlds Apart' by Jars of Clay.
'In The End' by Linkin Park.

Just to name a few.

Heh, me and my brother used to play a game back a year or so when I was still living with them, where we'd play a song and challenge eachother to guess the name and artist in the first few beats. I prided myself on being able to hit a song dead in, say, fiveor ten seconds. Ah, those were the good days. Even now I like to think I can ping a song given just a line or three of the song.

I guess this post doesn't say very much, but hey, it's been said. Have a nice night. ^_^