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jackofallgeeksNobody understands, he thought.
Nobody understands. Not even me.
He sat there in the darkened room, motionless. It was only early afternoon, but it was rainy outside, and the lights were off, as his room mate was taking a nap.
And I'm the sick one, he thought
He sat there, a dull loneliness burning inside him, unshed tears behind his eyes. He knew better than to sit and think, but he ended up doing it anyways. He told himself he would still marry her, even given the differences. He tried to convince himself that it didn't matter, as long as he could be with her. He almost believed what he was saying. Almost.
He laughed a half-laugh to himself. He'd seen it in everyone else, it's really no surprise that he found it in himself. Everyone gives up. Everyone decides that 'good enough' will have to be just that. And here, he knew what he wanted in a girl, in a companion, in a wife, and he had decided it didn't exist.
Even considering that there might be some girl out there who would fit, he still wanted to be with her.
Nobody understands. Not even me.
Nobody understands. Not even me.
He sat there in the darkened room, motionless. It was only early afternoon, but it was rainy outside, and the lights were off, as his room mate was taking a nap.
And I'm the sick one, he thought
He sat there, a dull loneliness burning inside him, unshed tears behind his eyes. He knew better than to sit and think, but he ended up doing it anyways. He told himself he would still marry her, even given the differences. He tried to convince himself that it didn't matter, as long as he could be with her. He almost believed what he was saying. Almost.
He laughed a half-laugh to himself. He'd seen it in everyone else, it's really no surprise that he found it in himself. Everyone gives up. Everyone decides that 'good enough' will have to be just that. And here, he knew what he wanted in a girl, in a companion, in a wife, and he had decided it didn't exist.
Even considering that there might be some girl out there who would fit, he still wanted to be with her.
Nobody understands. Not even me.
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