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Feb. 4th, 2003 01:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksWell, that was actually a really, really nice end to a horrible, horrible day.
Angry at a world which refuses to understand me.
Frustrated with girls who never seem to want me.
Upset with myself and worn by a long day.
Yeah, today pretty much sucked.
But just as I was going to go sulk with chocolate and Refractions, Amanda got on, and as I hadn't seen her in a couple days, I stopped to chat. She asked how I was doing, and as I have this thing about being truthful when asked that question, I told her I'd been better. She asked what was up, and I told her about how cruddy my day had been, and how I was going to be another statistic on Valentine's day.
She started talking with me, just chatting, and she told me that the best thing there was for me was to just let things happen, and not worry so much. ^_^;; She told me to pick a focus and put my efforts into that one girl. She also said she thought that what I really needed was a friend with benefits. She didn't think I should rush into a relationship, but I still needed comforting.
And she said she wouldn't mind being that friend, for what it was worth. She was really concerned, and didn't like seeing me as upset as I was tonight. It was nice... I don't know, to have a girl say that.... ^_^;; She said I sounded like I had NO confidence -- which is the last thing I ever expected to hear, what with me cosidering myself self-confident and everyone else saying i'm arogant...
Anyways, I still want to go cry, so I think I'll be off to do that.
But I am happy.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: pure morning - placebo
Angry at a world which refuses to understand me.
Frustrated with girls who never seem to want me.
Upset with myself and worn by a long day.
Yeah, today pretty much sucked.
But just as I was going to go sulk with chocolate and Refractions, Amanda got on, and as I hadn't seen her in a couple days, I stopped to chat. She asked how I was doing, and as I have this thing about being truthful when asked that question, I told her I'd been better. She asked what was up, and I told her about how cruddy my day had been, and how I was going to be another statistic on Valentine's day.
She started talking with me, just chatting, and she told me that the best thing there was for me was to just let things happen, and not worry so much. ^_^;; She told me to pick a focus and put my efforts into that one girl. She also said she thought that what I really needed was a friend with benefits. She didn't think I should rush into a relationship, but I still needed comforting.
And she said she wouldn't mind being that friend, for what it was worth. She was really concerned, and didn't like seeing me as upset as I was tonight. It was nice... I don't know, to have a girl say that.... ^_^;; She said I sounded like I had NO confidence -- which is the last thing I ever expected to hear, what with me cosidering myself self-confident and everyone else saying i'm arogant...
Anyways, I still want to go cry, so I think I'll be off to do that.
But I am happy.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: pure morning - placebo
