My weakness

[jackofallgeeks]

We all know that girls are my weakness -- always have been, always will be, I suppose. As a basic part of my nature, I just want to see them happy, and if I can help at all, I'm inclined to do so. It may be connected, thoiugh in what way I'm unsure, to the fact that I don't get along as well or as easily with guys. -shrugs- Just a few gender-specific biases I've noticed, and I don't know that they're all that uncommon.

I do not appreciate being manipulated. It's not cool when my roomie tries to convince me to take him out to a store and, when I say, "no, it's not going to happen," he goes over and has Rose try it. From the moment she asked, I knew what they were trying to pull. As soon as she asked the question, I was both offended and angered. And still, I was very inclied to say "Fine, we'll go, but only cause you asked nicely." Even being upset by it, and even given my anger from last night, and the feeling that I'm being utterly used, it took alot of effort to say no.
Perhapse it goes to show how offended I am simply for the fact that I said no.

I want to help my friends out in any way I can, physically, mentally, emotionally, or materially. I do not want to be used, and I expect some amount of appreciation for my services. That does not mean contributing $5 for gas, or buying me a sandwich, or bribing me with MtG cards. Those do not, to me, show appreciation.

I am also less than pleased by their habit of calling me 'Andy.' That's a name reserved for certain individuals, particularly family and those for whom I care dearly. Neither of which either of them are, least of all at this point. They haven't earned the 'privledge' if you will.

Comments

[surichan.livejournal.com]

Okay, forget that illegitimi shit...manipulation deserves some busted heads.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

LOL Calm yourself, Leslie.
I do so enjoy the re-made icon, there, though.
But I must ask - "The Lord is my Sniper?"

[surichan.livejournal.com]

It's from a song that I think works with Wolfwood and Vash's friendship a lot - Drew Bunting's "Sewannee Mountain". The whole song is really excellent when looked at from the POV of the two of them, but the line itself goes as follows:

I went down Sewannee Mountain just before the dawn
There I met a Methodist the name of Baptist John
Carving his Last Testament into the gates of stone
It said, "The Lord is my sniper, son - you leave me alone."

[oceans-of-jade.livejournal.com]

That is absolutely (excuse my language) fucking ridiculous. I can't believe your roommate did that. ::simmers:: I would advise you to tell them off, but then that's kind of mean and nasty and not everyone is capable of that. ^__^;; (I don't even think I could, except in my head)

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Yes, I do a fucking lot for those two, and I don't get much at all in return. It's nice to have them do something for me from time to time -- like buy me the MtG cards, or the Chik-fil-a sandwich, or leave me the last few pieces of their pizza. But alot of the time it almost feels like I'm just being paid for services rendered. I don't want to be an after-thought, and I'm not the damnable hired help. If you want to pay to have someone drive you around, get a fucking taxi. I don't appreciate being used.

I think I'm just looking for some genuine appreciation, and maybe a little consideration for the part I play. I don't mind being a nice guy - I actually enjoy it, and it's who I want to be. I don't need any kind of a reward for being who I should be in the first place. It's just that the bastards of the world have a way of dragging you down to their level... I don't like being angry.