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Oct. 31st, 2002 05:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksClaire gave me a call today to work out the kinks of our Nekocon trip. Seems we now have Eight people going - Four guys and Four girls. This means we need a second driver, which means I'll be driving, the significance of which means I will not be in the car with Claire.
Further more, of the Eight, I know Three - Myself, Louis, and Claire. Which leaves Five unfamiliar faces in our group. I'm mildly disappointed by this fact.
I'm scared. I really don't know what it's going to be like, seeing her again - particularly in the given circumstances. I foresee feeling very out of place, unwanted, and alone. Which would suck, because I really want to enjoy this Con, Claire or No Claire. I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to take the emotional strain, a taste of which I fear I experience everytime I hear her voice.
^_^;; I guess, in a way, if she's going to have five of her friends there, what does she need me for?
I also fear that having my car down there might nessesitate a trip to the Crofts, another set of people I'm afraid would be just as well off if I didn't make an appearance.
Further more, of the Eight, I know Three - Myself, Louis, and Claire. Which leaves Five unfamiliar faces in our group. I'm mildly disappointed by this fact.
I'm scared. I really don't know what it's going to be like, seeing her again - particularly in the given circumstances. I foresee feeling very out of place, unwanted, and alone. Which would suck, because I really want to enjoy this Con, Claire or No Claire. I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to take the emotional strain, a taste of which I fear I experience everytime I hear her voice.
^_^;; I guess, in a way, if she's going to have five of her friends there, what does she need me for?
I also fear that having my car down there might nessesitate a trip to the Crofts, another set of people I'm afraid would be just as well off if I didn't make an appearance.
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Date: 2002-10-31 02:45 pm (UTC)^_^;; Yeah, a little voice in the back of my mind is trying to get that through to me, too. I IMed my friend Sara about it - admitedly because I knew she would say something to lift my spirits, and she did - and she said "everyone i know who's met you likes you and thinks you are cool so i don't think you'll have anything to worry about" which seems to be the general concensus among, well, most everyone I know. ^_^;;
-_- It just takes a while for the wound to close up...
BUT, you're right. I AM going to have friends there - Leslie and Beth and Rae and Louis and Claire (and maybe that cute girl from AnimeUSA will make an appearance ^_~). So, especially for you Mel, I'll try my darndest to have a good time, and i'll be sure to have happy stories for you when the curtain closes. And sushi. Must. Get. Sushi.