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jackofallgeeksIt's so quiet.
It's been quiet for a while.
The silence gets to me sometimes, you know?
Seems so many people have been down recently. It's funny, you can almost always tell when someone's down, cause they start writing poetry. It's really quite humorous.
Myself? I'm not doing so bad. My roomie's been out all weekend - I've seen evidence of his passage, but I think he's been sleeping at his brothers. I think he may still be mad at me. And if he is, I think I may still be mad at him for it.
I worked all this weekend - Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Friday and Saturday I went to Anime USA with Louis. I got a paycheck today for a whopping $36.93. That's for the week I didn't really work much, obviously. I also have a creditcard bill comming in. I can pay it all of, I'm sure, but I'm afraid it'll drain my account down to nothingness. I can do that, or I can leave a balance and earn my first intrest debt. on the plus side, after said bill, I have nothing to pay for for a while (save maybe Gas now and again) and maybe I can build up finances again. I'll be working more, now, anyways.
I like to think I've recently made rather decent friends with an aquaintance from last year - Meghan. We've been talking in the past couple of weeks, and she's fun and stuff. I also found she's got a Blog, too (not a LiveJournal, but...), and reading that I think I've decided we think on the same level alot of the same time. ^__^
I had something else to say on the subject, I'm sure, but I can't remember what.
DLed alot of music that said Mike guy from the con suggested, and I'm looking through it all now. I seem to be deleting a great deal of it - it's just not quite what I'm looking for... There's something missing. On a similar note, however, if any of you can find stuff by Nobuo Uematsu (Or would it be Uematsu Nobuo in Japan?) I would highly reccomend it - he does classical-feeling instrumentals, and it's wonderful if you can find his stuff orchestrated.
Hmmm, not much else to say, I suppose... I'll end with a poem:
As a child, I found a sparrow
That had fallen from its nest
And I nursed it back to health
Til it was stronger than the rest
But when I tried to hold it then
It pecked and scratched my chest
till I let it go
And I watched it far away from me
With its bright and selfish song
And a part of me was cursing
I had helped it grow so strong
And I feared it would go hungrey
And I feared it might go wrong. Ohhh
But you cannot close the acorn
Once the oak begins to grow
And you can't close your heart
To what it fears and needs to know
That the hardest part of love, is the letting go
It's only in Eden
Grows a rose without a thorn
And your family start to leave you
On the day that they are born
for the record, no, this isn't my own composition, i'm not quite that artistic - i imagine i have spurts of creativity, but only i would call it poetry. this is a few lines from a song rachel introduced me to, 'the hardest part of love,' which of course comes from a musical of which she knows. i find it truely hits a deep cord within me, and as such seems to hit with a sharper blow than i intended. perhaps, though, the effect is the same.
It's been quiet for a while.
The silence gets to me sometimes, you know?
Seems so many people have been down recently. It's funny, you can almost always tell when someone's down, cause they start writing poetry. It's really quite humorous.
Myself? I'm not doing so bad. My roomie's been out all weekend - I've seen evidence of his passage, but I think he's been sleeping at his brothers. I think he may still be mad at me. And if he is, I think I may still be mad at him for it.
I worked all this weekend - Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. Friday and Saturday I went to Anime USA with Louis. I got a paycheck today for a whopping $36.93. That's for the week I didn't really work much, obviously. I also have a creditcard bill comming in. I can pay it all of, I'm sure, but I'm afraid it'll drain my account down to nothingness. I can do that, or I can leave a balance and earn my first intrest debt. on the plus side, after said bill, I have nothing to pay for for a while (save maybe Gas now and again) and maybe I can build up finances again. I'll be working more, now, anyways.
I like to think I've recently made rather decent friends with an aquaintance from last year - Meghan. We've been talking in the past couple of weeks, and she's fun and stuff. I also found she's got a Blog, too (not a LiveJournal, but...), and reading that I think I've decided we think on the same level alot of the same time. ^__^
I had something else to say on the subject, I'm sure, but I can't remember what.
DLed alot of music that said Mike guy from the con suggested, and I'm looking through it all now. I seem to be deleting a great deal of it - it's just not quite what I'm looking for... There's something missing. On a similar note, however, if any of you can find stuff by Nobuo Uematsu (Or would it be Uematsu Nobuo in Japan?) I would highly reccomend it - he does classical-feeling instrumentals, and it's wonderful if you can find his stuff orchestrated.
Hmmm, not much else to say, I suppose... I'll end with a poem:
As a child, I found a sparrow
That had fallen from its nest
And I nursed it back to health
Til it was stronger than the rest
But when I tried to hold it then
It pecked and scratched my chest
till I let it go
And I watched it far away from me
With its bright and selfish song
And a part of me was cursing
I had helped it grow so strong
And I feared it would go hungrey
And I feared it might go wrong. Ohhh
But you cannot close the acorn
Once the oak begins to grow
And you can't close your heart
To what it fears and needs to know
That the hardest part of love, is the letting go
It's only in Eden
Grows a rose without a thorn
And your family start to leave you
On the day that they are born
for the record, no, this isn't my own composition, i'm not quite that artistic - i imagine i have spurts of creativity, but only i would call it poetry. this is a few lines from a song rachel introduced me to, 'the hardest part of love,' which of course comes from a musical of which she knows. i find it truely hits a deep cord within me, and as such seems to hit with a sharper blow than i intended. perhaps, though, the effect is the same.
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Date: 2002-10-14 07:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-10-15 09:20 am (UTC)Well, during my Dark Ages, that's certainly what I did. It's surprising how much it can help, though...when you feel like you just can't tell anybody what it is you're feeling, getting it out abstractly is very cathartic. 'Course...since I actually found people (and LJ) to pour my feelings out to, I haven't been writing poetry much, and I believe that's for the best. Being able to talk to other people is always the best remedy.
Yeah, a lot of people are down lately. There's stuff trying desperately to get me down, too...I'm fighting tooth and nail to stay happy as I can be. Let's you and I stand steadfastly joyous together!