I'm just so tired.
Aug. 26th, 2007 09:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackofallgeeksI haven't written my next chapter like I told myself I would. I'm angry at myself for that.
I haven't gone over my advisor's comments on my last chapter. I expect to be grilled on that. I expect to be whipped, a little bit, for not having something more concrete to show my advisor tomorrow afternoon. I'll try to come up with things to discuss at our meeting, but I also expect that, since it's just me and her this week, our meeting will be brief. I think I'd like that; I think it would help me recenter on what I should be doing, anyways: writing my thesis.
I have a fairly large project due in my one true, actual class. So far the projects haven't been hard -- they've almost been fun, like word-puzzles done with computers. I intended to get it done today, so I could have all of this week for my thesis.
I just turned on the program, looked at it for five minutes, and turned it off. I have no motivation, no energy. I had a panic attack last night and didn't sleep well. It's a quarter of ten, I have a headache and I'm exhausted. I just don't care right now, and I think the effort of *making* myself care and the result of forcing effort right now would just leave me drained tomorrow.
I think it's more important that I get rest, recharge over night, and be prepared to work myself tomorrow. Which is precisely what I'm going to do.
I haven't gone over my advisor's comments on my last chapter. I expect to be grilled on that. I expect to be whipped, a little bit, for not having something more concrete to show my advisor tomorrow afternoon. I'll try to come up with things to discuss at our meeting, but I also expect that, since it's just me and her this week, our meeting will be brief. I think I'd like that; I think it would help me recenter on what I should be doing, anyways: writing my thesis.
I have a fairly large project due in my one true, actual class. So far the projects haven't been hard -- they've almost been fun, like word-puzzles done with computers. I intended to get it done today, so I could have all of this week for my thesis.
I just turned on the program, looked at it for five minutes, and turned it off. I have no motivation, no energy. I had a panic attack last night and didn't sleep well. It's a quarter of ten, I have a headache and I'm exhausted. I just don't care right now, and I think the effort of *making* myself care and the result of forcing effort right now would just leave me drained tomorrow.
I think it's more important that I get rest, recharge over night, and be prepared to work myself tomorrow. Which is precisely what I'm going to do.
