Sun don't shine, wind don't blow...

[jackofallgeeks]

I'm scared.

I'm scared that my finances will fall out from under me.
I'm scared that I'll get to Monterey with nowhere to live.
I'm scared that I'll fail my classes.
I'm scared that I'll futz up my thesis.
I'm scared that I'll botch things with Kira.
I'm scared that there's nothing *to* botch up with Kira.

Uncertainty has a way of getting to me. I like being certain of things. Right now, I'm not feeling very certain of much of anything. I'll be OK. I just need something to ground me, something that I can be sure of.

I'm scared.


Nothing I can do // that I have not done. // No words I can say. // No truth left that I can see. // So must I let this end // so everything falls apart. // Before I live the life // as I have always done. // Tell me what to do // so I do nothing wrong. // Something I can hope for. // Something real that I can see. // So nothing falls apart. // So that it does not end. // I cannot return. // I can't start again.
-VNV Nation, Rubicon