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jackofallgeeksTo whom it may concern (and, apparently, to those it doesn't as well) I have sent the letter. I may yet regret that move, I think, though it may just be my typical knee-jerk reaction. I almost feel like I should write an apology letter, though, that would be an impulsive thing to do seeing as I don't yet know how she'll take the letter.
I don't even know right now WHY I wrote it. Say what you will, but that's a given truth about my life, or my psyche - I'm not entirely sure why I do much of anything. I feel right now that it was rather a selfish move on my part, which may be why I regret it. I may have regretted it even before I dropped the letter in the box. I shouldn't be as concerned with this as I seem to be (though, in truth, I'm not sure I'm as concerned as I seem), and I should almost think it was a cruel thing to drop it in her lap.
I mean, I should imagine that she's doing well enough right now, with school and friends - I don't need the stress that comes as a consequence of this, I'm sure she doesn't. And I'm the one who's pushed it on her.
-_-
I think, maybe, I should have just sent her here. that prolly would have gotten my point across without seeming so bull-headed about it.
*sigh* As you can tell, I think this was a dumb move. But then, I've never been known for my intellegence. ^_-
In the end, I'm sure it will all work out for the better, though the fear comes in knowing that "for the better" may not be what I currently hope; though, one must wonder wether what I curently hope for the future will be what I'm finally thankful for in the past.
And, seeing as I've reached my deep thought for this post, I leave you.
I don't even know right now WHY I wrote it. Say what you will, but that's a given truth about my life, or my psyche - I'm not entirely sure why I do much of anything. I feel right now that it was rather a selfish move on my part, which may be why I regret it. I may have regretted it even before I dropped the letter in the box. I shouldn't be as concerned with this as I seem to be (though, in truth, I'm not sure I'm as concerned as I seem), and I should almost think it was a cruel thing to drop it in her lap.
I mean, I should imagine that she's doing well enough right now, with school and friends - I don't need the stress that comes as a consequence of this, I'm sure she doesn't. And I'm the one who's pushed it on her.
-_-
I think, maybe, I should have just sent her here. that prolly would have gotten my point across without seeming so bull-headed about it.
*sigh* As you can tell, I think this was a dumb move. But then, I've never been known for my intellegence. ^_-
In the end, I'm sure it will all work out for the better, though the fear comes in knowing that "for the better" may not be what I currently hope; though, one must wonder wether what I curently hope for the future will be what I'm finally thankful for in the past.
And, seeing as I've reached my deep thought for this post, I leave you.
