Raindrops and Streetlights

I just took a walk for no other reason than that it's raining.
It was cold rain, too. I love cold rain.

I walked down past school, and then around the little park over by church, and back. The rain let up a little while I was passing the cemetery, but picked up as I made my way home. I arrived back suitably drenched.

Something is bugging me; I can feel the tension, but I can't really articulate the what behind it. I think it may have a lot to do with my recent feelings of isolation. It's not good for me to feel isolated, it drives me a little mad.

I did get to talk with both Sara and Claire today, though, and I've made fairly-solid plans to have brunch with Claire on my way down to North Carolina to see Sara. That'll be good; I haven't seen Sara in nearly 6 years, I think. And her daughter's almost three now!

But yes. I should get to sleep. i'm already not going to want to get up in the morning...

"...she has swapped a budding career as a concert violinist for an investment banking job."

A friend pointed me to This article, the implications of which are simply disgusting. That our society is so... twisted as to demand beauty bow before... what? Money? Someone else in the thread used the term "Mammonist" in reference to this 'new' sort of fanatic. I like the term.

For my part, I'm not the artsy-sort. I like to pretend I can write, but I'm generally rather analytical and goal-oriented and all that. I'm probably quite suited for ending up as one-size-or-another cog in some capitalist machine; that having been said, I do this grudgingly, and only because bills have to be paid and food has to be put on the table (which itself needs to be paid for). I'm generally OK with this, because I like what I do (Computers) and I believe that providing for the family I hope to have is a goal worth sacrificing myself on the Corporate alter. If I were to really strike it big and one day acquire vast sums of money, though, I would pour LOTS of it into theatre and music and anything else that's "unproductive" but beautiful. I'm a big proponent of students in College studying what interests them, not what will make them money, and I would like to help people do just that.