Just a few kind words...

-smiles-
That was really pleasant.

My Graduation announcments arrived in the mail the other day, and Mom and I were talking about who they should be sent to. Family, of course, but I had a hard time thinking up non-relatives to send them to. Leslie and Louis, cause they've been my friends longer than anyone I know. Suzannah's family. The Twins' family. Jean. -laughs- My mom said "Jean [from middleschool]?" And I laughed and said I was surprised that she remembered her, to which my mom said "I remember her as one of your first crushes." Which is true, she was. For years. I used t'talk with her mom after school let out, wile she waited for Jean and I waited for my mom. -laughs- I even got Jean's mom to sign my 8th Grade yearbook, if I recall correctly.

So I was up late tonight working on my Psyche paper -- and making considerable progress, too, which is good 'cause I was getting really worked up about it earlier. I've already identified eight 'usable' sources (stuff I can quote actual content from to support my thesis), and I think I could easily get that to ten or twelve without trouble. Then it's just a matter of stringing the content together and citing my sources. I'd like to have all my sources identified before I go to bed tonight -- the paper's due on Monday Morning -- but I'm not all that concerned about it now. Which is good.

Anyways, I was up and I saw Jean on AIM, and thought I'd just tag her real quick and see about getting her address, what to send the graduation announcement. So I say "Hey, you there?" and she says she is, but can't talk. I say it's OK, cause I can't either, but I was wondering if I could get her home address, and she said "Oh, sure!" -smiles- Then she said that we really need to get together some time and catch up, and that really made me feel good. Made my night. Hell, made my whole weekend.

-smiles- I'm a simple guy. Easily pleased. It's just good to get some, what, 'validation'?

I felt rather wretched earlier this weekend. I was supposed to take Curtis to Richmond to judge a M:tG tourney this weekend, something I'd said I would nearly a month ago. And I kinda just hopped in my car, left him a note that I wouldn't be around this weekend, and I was sorry to bail on him like that. And I was, cause I don't like breaking my word (as I've mentioned here a few times recently, I think). But I *really* didn't want to judge that tourney. And I really didn't want to be driving that far that early for a long, expectedly-unfulfilling day, followed by a long ride home. And I felt bad about bailing on the Tourney organizers, too, but you know what, they never directly contacted me anyways, and just corresponded with Curtis, and that mitigates my feelings there. I'm my own person, not some extention of Curtis. At least have the decency to CC me in the email. Plus, I really was anxious about my paper, and knew I would get nothing accomplished if I went to the Tourney.

I am still a little worried, mostly about getting something to display for Senior Design this wednesday, and partly making time to write my Philosophy paper (which I'm BURSTING with ideas for, so it's really just a matter of sitting down and putting it on paper before Friday afternoon), but I'm feeling good right now, just in general. I'll get this psyche paper done, and reasonably well to boot. I'll get through Senior Design, and graduate, and move on with my life. I'll write my Philosophy paper and have a ball with it. I'll resolve things with Suzannah. I will find someone to love who will love me. And I'll be happy.

-laughs- Yeah, talking with Jean tonight, even for so short a time, was really nice.

[And, to Lizzybits: I lied. This is my last bastion of procrastination! -laughs-]