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I'm just sick and tired...
Sep. 8th, 2004 07:42 pmI think I'm developing allergies. Certainly nothing as bad as most allergic people I've known, but my sinuses are mildly congested and I have slight post-nasal drip. It's not fun, and in part has been keeping me up at night.
I started my job this morning, and started to remember why I didn't go visit DSS after I left for CPIT -- that is, I don't think I really like Bonnie, the one in charge over there, very much. I can't really say why, but... I think it has to do with the way she seems to see her position. Almost an "Us versus Them" kind of mentality. She's of the opinion that her department should have some sort of special status which removes it from certain budget considerations -- that they should be first in line, or able to cut in line, for new computers, and she should be able to expand her budget when everyone else is cutting theirs, and this should be perfectly fine.
I don't know. I think Bonnie and I would greatly disagree on how important her department is. That I'm working there is purely mercenary; I need a job.
Still no ports opened for City of Heroes, not that I expected there to be. I've just been checking (several times a day) in case they make a breakthrough and don't tell me. Or something. Also looks like the odds of me running a WoD2 game are slim-to-none. Firstly because there are certain Players around here that I simply don't want in my game. Nothing personal against them -- some of them are really cool guys -- I just don't trust them to play the sort of game I want. On top of that, all the players around here seem to be in Paul's DnD Game, plan to play in Paul's Second DnD Game, and are interested in Dan's d20 Game. And few if any have much exposure to Storytelling. Or something, I donno. Generally, I think Paul's an arrogant ass who runs little more than a hack-and-slash roll-playing game which all-but throws out all characterization and plot. Dan's a cool guy, and I might maybe consider playing in his d20 game, but...
The game I want to play is something along the lines of Joe Shmoe and John Average get in over their heads in Things Man Ought Not Know, and either fight it and/or become a part of it. Normal people in supernatural situations doing extraordinary things. that's what I want. And believable people, too; people who have flaws and vices, and might not like each other, and probably don't do what they do for altruistic reasons. Something like that. Maybe I'll see a game like that some time...
I had something more to say. Internet's been quiet for the most part. LiveJournal's slow, no email for a few days. I did have a couple nice moments with nice girls telling me nice things. That made me feel better about stuff and such. Been kinda wishing I had a girlfriend, even just a Someone to Play with. But I know that it wouldn't be satisfying, and I think I'd end up just thinking about Suzannah, or at least about something more Serious. Or something.
Randomly, the idea of something like a resume for relationships occurred to me. I've been thinking to much about work and girls lately.
I started my job this morning, and started to remember why I didn't go visit DSS after I left for CPIT -- that is, I don't think I really like Bonnie, the one in charge over there, very much. I can't really say why, but... I think it has to do with the way she seems to see her position. Almost an "Us versus Them" kind of mentality. She's of the opinion that her department should have some sort of special status which removes it from certain budget considerations -- that they should be first in line, or able to cut in line, for new computers, and she should be able to expand her budget when everyone else is cutting theirs, and this should be perfectly fine.
I don't know. I think Bonnie and I would greatly disagree on how important her department is. That I'm working there is purely mercenary; I need a job.
Still no ports opened for City of Heroes, not that I expected there to be. I've just been checking (several times a day) in case they make a breakthrough and don't tell me. Or something. Also looks like the odds of me running a WoD2 game are slim-to-none. Firstly because there are certain Players around here that I simply don't want in my game. Nothing personal against them -- some of them are really cool guys -- I just don't trust them to play the sort of game I want. On top of that, all the players around here seem to be in Paul's DnD Game, plan to play in Paul's Second DnD Game, and are interested in Dan's d20 Game. And few if any have much exposure to Storytelling. Or something, I donno. Generally, I think Paul's an arrogant ass who runs little more than a hack-and-slash roll-playing game which all-but throws out all characterization and plot. Dan's a cool guy, and I might maybe consider playing in his d20 game, but...
The game I want to play is something along the lines of Joe Shmoe and John Average get in over their heads in Things Man Ought Not Know, and either fight it and/or become a part of it. Normal people in supernatural situations doing extraordinary things. that's what I want. And believable people, too; people who have flaws and vices, and might not like each other, and probably don't do what they do for altruistic reasons. Something like that. Maybe I'll see a game like that some time...
I had something more to say. Internet's been quiet for the most part. LiveJournal's slow, no email for a few days. I did have a couple nice moments with nice girls telling me nice things. That made me feel better about stuff and such. Been kinda wishing I had a girlfriend, even just a Someone to Play with. But I know that it wouldn't be satisfying, and I think I'd end up just thinking about Suzannah, or at least about something more Serious. Or something.
Randomly, the idea of something like a resume for relationships occurred to me. I've been thinking to much about work and girls lately.
