What's so maybe about Katie?

[jackofallgeeks]

I haven't been able to get her out of my mind since Tuesday.
It feels like so much longer than that.
She hasn't contacted me since, and if you know me, you know that silence makes me anxious.
So I'm anxious.
And I'm impatient.
And I'm a fool.
And even if I'm not a fool, she's still 3000 miles away, and I hardly know her.

Persistence is a good thing, I've been told.
But I can't get over the hurt that persistence caused me recently.
I'm afraid to 'keep at it' because I'm afraid of being hurt again.

I haven't wanted to go to bed all week.
I think that's mostly because of school.
At least, I don't think it has much to do with this, because I didn't want to sleep last week, either.
I should go to bed.

Comments

[intereoagnitio.livejournal.com]

I just felt like goiving you a little poke about what you said. Here you say your impatient, yet in the post below it, you say your patient. Which one is it? Hmm?

It it would probably be best for me to stay out of the main ove this conversation, I don't want to seem the young fool.

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Below, I meant more patient-with-people or, more correctly, tolerance for people. I can be very tolerant of people, so long as they aren't ignorant (a term which has broad meaning for me). I'm not *really* patient, though. I am a creature of the Now, and when something isn't now, it irritates me.

So, no, I'm not patient, but I didn't really mean 'patient' earlier.

[intereoagnitio.livejournal.com]

I guess we all can't be perfect, can we *grins*

[jackofallgeeks.livejournal.com]

Perhaps not, but I approach it asymptotically.